The Untold Secrets: May 2008

Sunday, May 25, 2008

10:57 AM
Prayers

Hafiz met with an accident. And was I saddened about it. And the fact that he got it right after sending me home safely, I'm more upset.

He's got his skin under his eyes and his forehead scraped off, wounds at his hands, arms, legs, shoulders.

A week ago, it was Azmi. Please guys, ride safely.

I hope the two of have a speedy weedy recovery.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

11:48 AM
And the more I love you

I'm a freaking busy women. I' m the most busiest women now. But it's all for good. All thanks to work & school.

Damn work was great. I swear it was. And it doesn't take me more than 2 days of work to actually adapt and make myself comfortable with the new environment. Colleagues are way too friendly than I had imagined them to be. Despite the arrogant look they have and the first impression they gave me, I swear it all changed in just a very short time. I can say that only 1% of them are girls, which makes Amy, Nuhad and me the only girls there.

And gosh did they pamper us like we are princess of the whole department. Hahaha. Like how one the higher authority donated us his locker and being flexible and trying to cater to our time while they actually have a strict rule about working 4 days 1 day off. But they totally understand that I am still a student and I have to go to school and work at the same time. So they really took into consideration about the amount of time I get to rest in a week. Which somehow it doesn't help at all because I seem to have really a lot of things to do. Though FYP only takes up 3% of my life, it is sucha hell great burden to me.

And I have my social life, my personal life, my night life and more. And I notice, everytime I have a job and it's not a school holiday, I hardly have time for myself !!!

17th and 18th was picnic and overnight at East Coast Park. It was great. Normal activities by the beack like soccer, cycling, swimming and the best part, barbecuing. We did not rent a pit or whatever but instead Mak Busu brought a portable barbecue pit. How cool. And oh, tents. We've got a total of 4 ten-men tent pitched nicely and and extra shelter right at the entrance of our pondok. Cool ain't it. The night was spent with Atika, cycling and sitting at the waterbreaker, watching abang-abang fish. The breeze by the beach was awesome, even more awesome at night. And it's great if it was well spent with the love ones.

Congkak with them girlfriends. Days less spent with my monkeys. Will pay up to them soon jyea. Pictures up real soon. Stay tune!

And I'm in love with that mimi.

2:34 AM
Mr Clean

Sorry I have not been calling.
Sorry I have not been remembering you.
But the news saddened me a lot.
Get well soon dear.

Friday, May 16, 2008

6:34 AM
To hell with the fucking old hack

Ignore the that and time.

I am having Financial and Banking Applications and I swear I fucking hate the facilitator. Well, I'm not just the only one but Shaff too. We can see her biasness. Plus the way she talks and walks and all is very very annoying. It is very disturbing.

And she have a voice that irritates me because it sounds like she try so hard to be cute.

Now I am just done with presenting, full of vulgarities aimed on her face for trying to get on my nerves with the endless question directed to me on my slides. I am sure enough I explained well and she jolly well pretend she did not understand a thing I said, so I raised my voice a little, get it done, ignoring her following question and proceed on to the next slide.

Then, she tried to pick on my whole group saying we did not present the clearing cheques process and what is IRD, when we already did. Finally, she gives up.

At my seat, I was loud enough for her to hear the vulgarities that came out of my mouth. Hahahaha. I really need to control my anger. Serious. Maybe the monthly cycle. Maybe it's just me. But to hell with her.

And after a detox, I deserve to pamper myself with something edible-y sinful. Heira! I am craving for Butter Maple Syrup Waffle, Milky Cup Corn and Chocolate Brownie with Ice Cream!!!

[Picture taken 2 years ago.
The only picture I have pointing my middle finger. Hahahah.]

Ok, I can't help looking at her face. I need a fag.

Labels: School

Thursday, May 15, 2008

8:57 AM
Positive decreasing digits. Yay!

I am getting sick and tired of my hair. The photo above was my hair then. I got irritated with the color so I dyed it jet black now. And now I think my hair is so boring. Straight and flat. Though I am really comfortable because it always falls back to its right place no matter what but it's too boring. I used to have interesting hairstyles and all. Now I really feel like having one now. Please grow faster.

Oh and and and.

I GOT THE JOB.

Alhamdulilah. Will start this saturday and how can I not know about the camp my family had planned for this weekend.

Monday, May 12, 2008

2:18 PM
ILYSM

Now I have a problem in maintaining two at a time. I have been delaying updates due to not knowing which and what to be ranted here or my Livejournal. Hahaha. And also, I am kinda busy with my FYP, tho I have not yet reached the critical stage and only takes up , still, it's a great burden. I have yet to submit any weekly student log, when I should had been doing since 3 weeks ago.

I am now living like a chicken. Kais pagi, makan pagi, kais petang makan petang. Tak kais tak makan laa. Hahahahaha. How to translate that to English eh? A chicken would have something to eat if it digs the ground for worms. And if it doesn't digs in to the ground for worm, it will have nothing to eat. Jyea, something like that. And whatever allowance Mama gives for school, will be nicely be for school. And I can't live $4/- per day in polytechnic, I am not complaining, neither am I going to ask for more, but yes, I hunted for a job like a lion that hadn't eat for eons. And I went for an interview last friday, and I somehow am getting the job. Waiting for their call to start work.

I will tell you guys where and what the job is when I received the call. And I swear I can't imagine life went I start working. Momma had start to complain about how I rarely spend my time at home because I am spending 75% of my life in school. And Momma, you should understand my situation now and I know what I am doing. Don't worry about my attendance, because for sure, you would see a visible change. Trust me. And definitely, I would not have to feel the bliss of my first pay for all of it will be going straight to MobileOne and I wanna resume my line back as soon as possible. I feel very very handicapped without a phone.

So please pray that I would get the JOB. AMIN!

And I notice how much this blog had change and a lot are not being published here. All thanks to I-KNOW-WHO. Thanks aahhh. Tho you are nice, you changed the whole impression I have towards you after what you have done.

Oh and speaking of which, I feel really really annoyed with those girls wearing tudung and taking it off whenever they like. I loathe those who have their tudung on and am happily smoking away and hugging and kissing their boyfriends in public not taking into considerations those disgusted eyes looking at them. And seen in clubs with extra-exposed clothes and portraying themselves like a whore, and then at the end of the day, back in tudung.

I mean I know, it's your life, your way of living, but come on, you are carrying your image as a Muslim, our religion and is this the kind of impression you are giving to the public towards our religion? Be it you are forced or sincere putting it on, you are holding that responsibilities yourself.

I need to get a new bag because my brown bag have snapped. I need to get new shoes because it's getting from bad to worst. I need new clothes because I don't know where the rest go.

I like things the way it is right now.
But between me and you,
there should not be a beef.
So why did you choose this path?

Thursday, May 08, 2008

2:41 PM

This is not the first time I am jotting this down, but again, I just wish to. I'm glad that the mistakes I did was indeed a fruitful experience for me because indeed, I learnt a lot. 18 years of age, and I don't think I should be facing what I am facing. Many said they would had gave up, and some couldn't even imagine, if they were in my shoes. That shows how strong I had been.

And then again, I've learnt so much about friendship. Not just the word but what it means in reality. And now, I would love to leave it the way it is, and pretend to be oblivious. Because in the first place, there's really nothing I wish to fret and drag about. Because indeed, it's so much fun watching instead of having to go through the hassle of entertaining. Gosh, I'm acting less like a girl should had.

The past few days had been ok. I have sufficient fun to push my sorrows away. Enough smile, laughters and safe jokes, I must add, to end the day with.

School have got a new cafe at TRCC, also named Cafe Esplanade. It's nice and worth the money. $4 for a plateful of Spaghetti along with salad, wedges and chicken/fish of your own choice + soft drinks. And damn, it's the next best chillout place with the super comfortable hot-red sofa.

On Monday, it's LIVE EARTH DAY, yet again, because it's total coincidence that Aisha, Eeqa and I have to put on Black/White and GREEN! hahahahha. Accompanied Heira to get new shoes for her lab session in school when I actually spotted a cute adorable Maryjane. I badly wants it but there's things that are more important than that shoe.

Must must must.
No matter where, even though we in the middle of a shopping centre.
Hahaha.

And yesterday, I turned myself to the most Bitchiest Angriest Woman on earth.

In the morning, Fayeh treated me McGriddles Meal at MacDonald's for some reason I don't wish to share. And when I was squeezing garlic chilli on the sausage, I notice that the egg is not as circle as it always have to be, and there's egg shell in it. Usually, I won't fuss over this kind of things, but I wasn't me yesterday, after taking a few bites from the sausage, I brought the burger over to the counter and demand for a better egg. Hahahaha. How Singaporean.

And then after school, Heira and I dined in at Long John Silver, we bought additional cheese dips for our meals and I really find the amount of cheese was pathetic, so I get the guy to fill up the whole container. Baek pe!

Heira and I had a great talk, things we never knew and all and I have a great time tickling her thighs and make her go mad which leads to her slapping my hand. And my ALAH! and the menyampah couple beside us. Thanks Heira for being the cherry on top of my day.

I spent some time sitting by the Ice Skating ring with Heira and somehow, I really wants to get the feel you get when skating, be it on ice or on ground. =X I think this entry is very messy. Thank you for reading.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

5:26 PM
Pain

Dear you,

I miss us.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

7:42 PM
One Fullerton

It had been a real hectic week. Very very mind blowing. Thou I did not do much to suck my energy out, but my brains had been working hard, so that resulted to being lethargic and I'm so drained.

Glad that I finally decided to go to and join La Familia. They've planned for a chillout at One Fullerton's Starbuck on Friday after school. Initially, I was so damn broke, I don't think there would be a point going if all I do is sit and laugh while the rest are happily sucking their frapps down their throat. But it'll be a waste to miss the fun and afterall, it'd been so long since we girls spent time, so I decided skipping my meals in school for the frapp's bucks.

I was really really tired, for I had been studying my brain's out for Banking UT during the day off, but then again, I think I deserve a little fun after so much work done. Hahaha. Ok so I went! And GOD was I thrilled when Aisha said that everything will be on her. And the moon was indeed blue that night. Hahahahaha. Kidding. But Aisha, thanks again. Next up, PHAT!!! Hehs.

So time spent was satisfying, with . . .

Aisha, abang,

Heira

Phat and Eeqa.

The best girls everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Abang added sugar to himself and he was extraordinarily sweet by giving Eeqa the flower.
So yes, the singles wants to berangan for awhile.
And Aisha made-believe herself that the man behind her was the man that gave her the flower.

And so Aisha sure spent a bomb, a drink for each of us, bagel, chocolate amer, Oreo Cheesecake and Chocolate Danish. Plus plus plus, the barristas accidentally made the wrong drink for us, so we have 2 additional free grande cups. Dear tummy, be prepared to be overdosed with sugar and chocolate and milk.

Our messy messy table.

A big hug for the Mama on the house.

Happy happy kiddos with sinful food.

This will be so nice if Phat is in toooooooooo.

And the part I could not forget. Abang actually drew our family tree.
Hahaha. Come to me and explain my relationship with each and everyone of the members
and stand to win a prize!!!

Happy happy moment.

Phat take good photo of me.
Or is it me that makes the photo looks good?

Glutton.

Yours truly.

Motive? Sweet laa tu kan.

Fight for the camera !

In 12 year time, when I look at these pictures, I will smile with tears in my eyes.

She who manage to catch the limelight.

And finally, a complete group shot.

I love you all.
And no, I didn't just say this for the sake of it,
GOD brought us together for a reason,
and after so much that we went through,
our bonds are stronger,
and I hope we can stay this way forever.