The Untold Secrets: June 2007

Monday, June 25, 2007

5:48 PM

Upon listening and looking at you weep and wail, right at the very minute that proclaim your birthday, it touched and breaks my heart . I truly feel the pain you are going through . I hoped you are strong and could bear the hassle you have to face . You should had known it had been like that all the while, and be ready that you have to stand facing it one day . Bear the brunt like how I did .

Just take it as a lesson, it’s the first stage of your challenge in life . Today, marks the day you are one year older , you should had been stronger than this . I had gone through a lot, and I know you had seen it . How I had suffered and struggle through my way . And it had me a strong young lady . I can guide you through, my dear . But you just have to accept the fact, this living nightmare will never go .

God, she is just too young for this and have yet to be able to carry such a burden .

And YOU . Yes YOU & YOU . Why can’t YOU be like the other _______ ??

Oh btw, I am sick . Again ? Yes . It's not like anything new anymore or wateva . But this time, it just sucks . I have a super bad flu . And it blocks my nose ALL THE TIME . and due to the runny nose, my ear drums got swollen . Yes, runny nose can leads to a swollen ear drum . Doctor said the runny nose is very bad, and I have been having it for GOD knows how long and it leads to phlegm-ey cough and body got so heaty, my ear drum got swollen .

And yes . It FUCKING hurts . It hurts a lot a lot . Not only it just hurt you, it also makes me feel so the DISabled . People around me need to say what they say, at least twice or thrice so that I can hear them . In short, I'm DEAF .

Oh yea, and it had been 5 days, and still no changes . It's totally blocked . Imagine one of your ears is being covered by something and the sound that is supposed to travel and vibrate your ear drum is , the sounds you here jus sux . You can even hear the "tump tump tump" sound when your are walking, the sound when you are chewing, the sound when you are bathing, when the water hits your head and your voice seems to sound louder than usual and you tend to talk softer, and not knowing you are too soft or too loud .

And in this kind of situation, I miss the presence of that special someone, who would be thereand show you full care and concerned and make you feel so loved . That special someone, who would bug you to drink enough plain water and eat properly . Remind you to take the medication and have enough rest . I miss it .

Oh please, I wish I get well soon .

&& Happy Belated Birthday to Mr Clean a.k.a Azmi and Boi Skinhead .

Tag Replies . My super-duper overdue taggies . Sorry taggers .

Nursyafiqah: cant believe i didnt feel that slap
-Good . I can slap harder next time .

iyliee: hey oren!!! next time ajak me 0kaaayy..haha! ;)
-Oh yea of course I can .

serra: did u give a present to ifad ? just now?
-ermmmm . errrryaaaaaaaaaaaa . hahahaha . It's his birthday hunn .

shaZy: eh even after 4 days straight being with you, sleeping together and everything, aku rase aku maseh rindu kau. hahahaha.
-alalalalalala . sweet nye . aku pon rindu kau . hehehehe . tapi tak aar . skrng kau kat depan aku .

nunu: i see food!!
-really ? how come i don ? wer ? wen ?

Nursyafiqah: fatin. brp kali kau nak tido alek saaaakkkk!
-tak cukup siol . Mesti mau tido 8 jam satu ari pe .

Fidd: woi... Fizah misses Fatin... hee :P
-Fizah ? Sape Fizah ? Hahahahaha . Joking . Yea, I miss you tooo laaa .

shaZy: kiwak, bahagie siak muke aku dgn eeqa. hahahahahha. eh anak dara gi bangon and mandi ah. busuk! hahahahaha
-Eh diam seyyyyy . kau tak yah bilang org2 sume aar . Malu siol aku . and a`ah . bahagia .

haiyu lidia: **link**link**
-yaaaa . so much for asking me to link you when your blog has got password to read it .

MelL: RELINKK MEE!! ((:
-Oh yea sure .

Hanis: Hello!haha!!Thank you very much!!haha!!
-Hehs . No problem .

Nursyafiqah: maybe its my turn to make you pay for my caption. hahaha. rmb it takes two to tango? hahahaahahahhhahahahaah
-a`ah yer . amek laaaa kau .

shaZy: wow, i love your latest update. hahahahahaha.
-ok . thanx . hahahaha .

sham: hello orange... i miss u... (:
-hello sham . I miss you too .

Nursyafiqah: aku jugak yang amek tu gbr! cheyyyy! hahahaahah. diam seh eeqa. ah tu ah aten kan da 45 tahun experience. hahahaahahaha diam la
-hahahahahahah . k laa . lain kali aku kasi kau credits .

shaZy: spoken like a true someone who's been in the scene for 45 years or so. hahaha. but true babe true! :D :D :D aku rindu kau ah.
- =D

nunu: suke gamba yg ade smoke tu! cool uh
-hahahahaha . yeah . lawa kan ?

Nursyafiqah: ella ella ey ey ey
Nursyafiqah: okay fatin chill k.. chiiiiiiiiiiiillll.... k aku nk makan.. hahaha.. aku agree aku agree dan aku tak sabar nk jumpa korg3 esok. RINDU!
-ok . a`ah . yee .

hasanur: wah dik..lu peh mengamuk dlm post pasal photography tapi tkpe...kasi mengamuk sekali.hahaha
-hahahaha . tak laa mengamok . cume food for thoughts jek .

turtle: Hmmm. I wonder where is Orange...
-I ammmmm here . . . . . . . . . .

shaZy: chalet is explicit kapeeeee. macam paham. -_- hahahahah.
- heeeeeeeeeeee .

Nursyafiqah: hahahhah shuddup seh faten
- ok .

squirrel: you look good in the green top. and i sooo miss talking to you..lets go toilet! hahaha. lame-.-.LOL
-tahu pon lame . hahahaha . thanx . and yea, lets !

Fai: aku nk keluar on weekends lain kali k. tkmo weekdays. boring. semua pikir pasal skola.
Fai: aku rindu korang lagi la sehh.
-ok ok . sure . kite plan siang2 k .

serra: wahah! kesian la ko fatin. ko mcm nak gi camping seh. padahal gi kranji memorial je .. aha!
-hehs . u know me .

Nursyafiqah: eh update la burst my bubble!
-ok da update .

Princess: i love u all ke... tak love kiter ah takpe la da biase..
-ok ok . wateva floats your boat .

shaZy: eh, asal tak update pasal photo shoot kat botanics garden 2nd round nyeeeee. alah atleast tu nanti ade muke aku kat blog kau. hahahaha.
-aaaar tengok tu . cukup tak cukup ?

Nursyafiqah: wahai saudaraku. mengapaaaaaaaalah kekanda ku sanggup menduakanku semata-mata untuk bersama dgn adinda?
-ntah laaa . aku pon tak tahu .

Fai: oh ammmmmm geeeeeeeee. i miss everyone. i'm like pretty crying after reading each and every LLKG's blog kay. k bye. i want to have an outing. like seriously before singapore banjir because of me.
-alalalalalalalala . jgn nangis k . nanti kita klua ramai !

shaZy: ah ni confirm si phat pakai aku nye laptop tag tau. hahahah. kau bukan anak aku sey faten, kau cucu aku. hahaha.
-hahahaha . aku tahu . mak aku !!!

squirrel: hey i hope youre okay okies deariee :)
-yea . soon . i guess .

aliah: eh fatin...relink me...
-ok sure .

shaZy: anak akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3
-ok maaak [phat] I love you .

Princess: ya la other ppl all love la... haiz.. lol..
- =D

heira: i dont know why,i feel so touched when i read the entry about you going out with me and eeqa HAHAHA
-hahahaha . touched kape ? ermmm . hahahaha . ok .

Nursyafiqah: okay even though the entry's overdue, you're still as sweet as ever. :D hahaha.
- hahahaha . tell me something i dunno .

rouqin: Love, Pls Relink Me! Thanks :)
-oh ok . sure .

atika: pangkret. i miss you
-hahahaha . we met !

Nursyafiqah: omg omg the chalet's over ):
-yea . it's over . long ago .

shaZy: fatennnnn!! aku nak lagik aku nak lagik! kite buat lagik boleh tak? best ahhhhh. ahhh, chalet is the bomb.
-bomb . atomic bomb .

iNiN: siao!!!
-giler .

serra: i am so looking forward to seeing ur bangs
-there you go . all around !

iyliee: okay nvm, tkleh bace then js tag lor..hurr.
-hahahaha . use mozilla oni k .

I know . This is alot . And so the overdue until bercendawan . That's all for now .

Sunday, June 24, 2007

2:56 PM
Friends

I am so the lazy to type down . And I think if I do, this post will be super long just like the great wall of china . And so, pictures up .

Nex episode : Something that I dunno . How am I supposed to predict the future ? I'm not GOD u see . and yeah Tag Replies .

-OranGeDoLL

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

9:12 AM

Knowing your true colours, I'd rather live in black and white .

Monday, June 18, 2007

11:54 AM

My umbrella girls had this short conversation and I keep on pondering over it .
And surfing the net, blog hopping, it helps strengthen the fact we umbrella-girls had state down .

Feeling upset, I think they should stop .

Seeing them carrying a camera in their hand, during breakouts, whatever the reason is, we don't care but seriously it pisses us off . And they seriously look like a ~~wannabes .~~

Photography is not a trend . I dunno how, but it is like the IN thing now . And you will see people carrying DSLR around the world, trying to tell that THEY SNAP GOOD PHOTOS . But hell, they don't even know how to hold the camera right . Not holding the camera right, not knowing the right way to support your DSLR, would not produce good shots you see . There's no stability in the camera . And having good camera doesn't mean you are a good photographer that takes good shots . Like Justyn always say,

"Even if you have the most lousiest camera, you are a true photographer and you take good shots, you are a good photographer ."

Its YOU that matter . Not the camera .

And again, allow me to emphasize, PHOTOGRAPHY IS NOT A TREND . I had been into photography since DEC 2005 . And I felt like I suddenly wake up from a hibernation to realize there are more and more "PHOTOGRAPHERS" around . And these are the people that have not shown symptoms to their addiction in photography, and it's like out of a sudden, you see them with good shots in their profile .

And everybody wants to have DEVIANTART . I am not trying to stop those who are into photography now, but I just don't want them to see photography as a trend and will fade away soon enough . They seem to make photography so ugly .

Just some thoughts penned down .

Sunday, June 17, 2007

1:39 PM
unambiguous

After the dry-run we seniors had done, we had finalized the decision to just bring the juniors to Botanic Garden . And yea, Botanic is so beautiful, I just can't resist and take leave for my work .

I was late . Was supposed to meet at noon at Orchard MRT Station and at noon, I am still in my room, lingering in front of my closet, not sure of what to put on . Everybody know, I'm a star . STAR-KARAT .

Ok . So, had our lunch for all the stomach's grumbling and the smarties just doesn't want to get it ready for the day . The rain is pouring, while chewing, we pray that it would stop and give the sun it's turn . And yes, it stopped and off we happy kids skip our way to the beautiful, peaceful garden that calm the restless soul in me .

And i think the day is more like the-girls-day-out than a photo-outing for the juniors because we had so much of our version of fun, instead of guiding the juniors in photography . We walked our own way and soon after, we even forgot about the rest . Ok, that's mean .

So we find a nice comfortable spot and chill .

And i saw this WOMEN there . I think she is the pekebun at botanic garden .
Well, she really maintained the garden well . Good job WOMEN .

I was trying to tie my short hair because the heat is horrendous, i perspire like a pig .
Oh yea, my bangs !! That's my bangs [duh ~~~] .

And Phat brought bubbles !!
It brought us back to our younger days .
Just take a look at Phat and Aisha .

They got so excited .

And i seriously dunno when is this taken . . .

Blow . Blow . Blow .

Blow it big .

And I blew smoke in it .
That's the reason for the misty bubble you got there .
And it's so cool when the bubble burst and the smoke dispersed into the air .
So cooooool !!

After the bubble fun, our throat run dry, we head to the Makan-place .

Oh yes Phat, we are going to get drinks okeh ?

Yes . Very thirsty .

Da laaa tu, air dabes pegi laa beli lagi .
Tak cute siol kau cebik tu mcm . =D

Oh . And i got myself ICE KACANG .
Aaaaahhh . So nice .

Phat stop it !

And then we continue on our journey .

I think this is the most classic photo .
Eeqa muke "CUTE"
Phat nampak mulut jek .
Aisha kat blakang "Hey korg ! Tunggu aku . . . "
And my hair, belah-tengah .
Hahahaha . Cute laa siol ni gamba .

I photograph what I can't design .
And I design what I can't photograph .

Oh, we happy kids . . .

Sha . tuuuu tak perlu eh .

Mom look at this pic and she yelled
"Ten, bile yg kau merayap sampai kat Kota Tinggi ??!!!"

Ok mak chill, kota tinggi have bigger water falls, remember ?

Phat, kau leh suruh kite amik kan gamba kau lawa2 seyyyy .

And yea, behind me, 2 budak-mcm-pham nak mendaki gunung .

And so, we walk around again . And stop at the most cliche-d tree [as said by Eeqa] .

Nah amek kau .
Nak sangat kan gambar kau kat blog aku ?
Yg nk ok ??

Baru lepas dapat . Hahahaha . Ok aten, stop .

Mak-anak love .

Random .

It wasn't wednesday but I don't care .

Aisha's achievement .

I love you laa Aisha .
I love you soooo much much much .

And then we were lying down in the middle of the field .
On the grass, enjoying the wind and scenery .
Talking about just anything under the sun,
when this is what we see . . . . .

Oh rain, why must you come and stop the merriment .
And then, we run out of the Botanic Garden, to the bus stop into the bus, with an umbrella sheltering four girls .

We head to Clarke Quay and end the day sweetly with these guys and Coffee Bean .

And chalet is explicit .

So long readers . !