The Untold Secrets: July 2006

Saturday, July 29, 2006

2:53 PM
Wat ? Wateva .

hey hey .

due to the previous post . There's alot of things i missed .

firstly . IFAD .

Muahaaha . i know laa ifad . u must had been dropping by my bloG to check if there's anymore bout you rite . k haaha .

hmmm . wat about him aar ? Ouh !! da msn conversation . naah . it's jus to tell that i got the permit from him to post anything bout him here in my bloGGie !!!!! yeah !! that means, i can bitch bout him !! waakaaaka . Ifad, u'll regret it . Haaha .

ifad says:
ish u tinkin t00 much larr

ifad says:
i dun tink u haf a crush on me oso

ifad says:
we r just frens

ifad says:
n u dun hav to tell me dat

ifad says:
wakaka

ifad says:
chill dude

ifad says:
u can post anitink bout me larr n i won tink much bout it

ifad says:
so u dun hav to worry

ifad says:
wad im tryin to say is dat u hav the freedom to post bout me whenever u wan

ifad says:
dun hav to worry i may tink t much into it

See that ??? "u hav the freedom to post bout me whenever u wan" . Muaahaaha . IFAD . i can post the worst thing bout him in my blog . You know, like how he shout wen he see a cockroach, wet his pants when he's in the lift when the building black out . I'll write all that down . i will . even if it was all made-up . Muaahahaa . k ifad . i'm kidding . hee hee hee .

i created for him the customized South Park character . and at first, i forgot his PRECIOUS MOLE . Muaahaaha . i know he was so upset, he was still pondering over it and tag me bout it . i promised him i will make another one with his PRECIOUS MOLE ON HIS LEFT CHIN . and ......................

voila !!

Cute right ?? i know .

He said, it looks like a "Crook" . haaha . tat's da point . in person, u already look like a CROOK, Ifad . Muaaha . Kidding . Haissh . how i wish i hava Ifad's photo so i could compare . Muaahaaha . Enuff of Ifad . Now bout .. hmm ..

These few days, my nick on MSN was "I am FAT... You are ugly ... But i can DIET" . Don't you readers agree with me ??

i am fat . but i cant deny that i still have looks . i am thankful for all the clothes that fits a lil too snug; it means i have enuff to eat. I can jus watch my diet, exercise, lose some weight and i'll be beautiful . Those ugly-faced people, they will need to go for plastic surgery, facial treatment or wateva.

If was a guy, i would rather date a fat girl with a pretty face then dating a thin girl with an ugly face. K . different people have different taste . So yeah .

Amir . I was so stressed on Wenzday . Was having Computing And Mathematical Processes . My team was so doomed . I was like doing the research all by myself and i was so lost . Everyone in my group was pissing me off . One merely commands what to have in the slides and does not help a little bit . Another one is busy gaming and the other was happily IM-ing . At the end of 2nd breakout, i felt like collapsing . My hands hurt so much . i dunno why . but it's not due to a lot of typing . i juz dunno why . Amir gave me a good massage !! Phew . appreciate it alot maan .

The both of us were also hooked to the game DTXmania . Amir was hooked to the song "Fa Ru Xue" I was hooked to the song "Doki Doki" . We kept repeating the song like nobody's business .

So suddenly my creative-yet-lame brains cell became active .

One fine day, as i am cooking dinner for the whole family, my daughter went back home from skool . It was her first day of skool . So i asked her ..

Me: Sweety, how was skool today ??

Daughter: Good mum . But i know a girl who has a very weird name .

Me: Really ?? Wat's her name ??

Daughter: Her name is "Nur Fa Ru Xue Bte Mohd Amir"

Me: Siti Nor Doki Doki Bte Md Amir !!! That's ur own sister for goodness sake !!

Haaha . It takes Amir 57 seconds to understand he was my husband . Get the stupid joke ?? Our children are named after the songs . Muaahaa . Crapp .

And Amir didnt come on today . It means 4 days of "Amir-free" . Damn . i'M so gonna miss him maan .

Here's some photo of myseLf . i'M "BERANGAN-inG" .

My smile ?? i know it sucks . Cos i'm hiding loads of things behind it

(Apart from my teeth and tongue)

Maan . I'm jus so adorable .

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Friday, July 28, 2006

2:56 PM
Momma . i love you . but why ??

Today, I freaking hell had a bad start.

First thing !! Momma wake me up and say "Your dad told me he didn't wanna see you to put wax on ur hair and mess it up ." Chee bye !!! I am fucking hell going 17 and I still have irritating bastards to tell me what to do and what not to do .. This is my hair . On my head . I style it with my own hand . And I use my own pathetic allowance to buy the wax .

Momma has this habit of doing everything in my room . She'll lie down on my bed, read newspaper . EVERY MORNING WHEN I'M DRESSING UP . And guess what she'll say

"Don't wear clothes that is too small for you" ...
"Please wear Baju Kurung" ...
"Don wear pants . Ur butt look ENORMOUS" ...
"Don put on eyeliner . You look ugly with it" ...

and ...

"Please hang your towel" ...
"Lower down the volume of ur radio" ...
"Change to 94.2 FM" ...
"Clean up your room before you leave" ...
"Why is the phone on your bed ?? You must have been on the phone the whole" ...

and many many many many many many many more .

And this morning, [let me cut the story SHORT] I blow my top off . I yelled . Literally yelled . "I'm not a small kid anymore where you have to tell me what to wear and what not to do." Then ......... *Gedebush* a PUNCH on my face . Next thing I remember, I went out of house, slam the gate, put on footwear and down the staircase . I didn't wanna cry . Coz I know . I'm strong . But sadly . I'm like a durian . Hard and thorny outside . Soft and sweet inside . I was so hurt . The pain i had in me was unbearable . I cried in front of Suhailah .. at .. at .. FITNESS CORNER FOR THE ELDERLY at my neighborhood . I cried so badly . I cant control . I have to let it all out . So I burst . Uuuuuurgh . FYI, I didn't face this shit only this morning but EVERY MORNING . No kidding . This is some serious shit !!

She call me "pompuan sundal" and "betina gatal" [some cheap women] . i learnt at my religious class, wateva comes out from a mother's mouth is a "doa" . So wat is she trying to tell me ?? Shud i jus find a guy who don't love me but all he wants is my body . Shud i ? Shud i ? Is tat wat she wants me to do ?

Well, it's up to you to believe it or not . But I think I cant keep these SHIT anymore . I have to throw it away and make space for new SHITS coming up . I'm still wondering, when is tis going to stop . I may look happy, friendly, hyper-active, noisy, LAME, bitchy and wateva . I jus wanna forget bout wat is at home . Deep deep down, I'm dying . I'm looking for strength to go on with life . I'm so sure none of ya'll wants this kind of start early in the morning .

A punch for breakfast, anyone ???

To Suhailah, you are like the only one who can see my misery . (Because you go to school with me, so you're the first person I see . (= ) Thanx for the listening ear and the strong shoulder . I know it's irritating to watch people cry early in the morning . Sorry if I made the start of ur day bad too .

To Amir, sorry to had disappoint you . I know you'd be so upset to actually find out I skipped skool today . So now u know why, I cant drag myself to school in this kind of situation . I really hope you understand . I skipped for a reason now . I'm not trying to blame my momma but I jus need to de-stress .

Some readers may think what I face was NOTHING while some other children is facing much worst abuse. Don't judge my misery [AND MY MOMMA] just by reading this entry . Friends that had known me since primary and secondary school, I bet you guys understand better .

Let me paste one of my "Microsoft BloGGinG" here . I was created a month ago .

"Parents"

I'm a girl that is dying for parental love. I hardly get any of it. All I know is that I have shelter, clothes to wear and enough food to eat. I get enough money for school and never did I get a chance to shop for new clothes and accessories like other teenagers love to do. I'm still grateful though. I didn't have the freedom all teenagers would be dying for. I didn't get to go out every weekend and find some cool place chill out with my friends. Though, I'm still thankful. I find myself doing housework instead. Vacuum, mop, dishes, laundry are my friends every weekend.

It was something, not at all unusual, seeing me going to school with a swollen eye or lips, bruised legs and arm. I'm so used to it. It is no surprise that this actually continue till the age of 16. [Those who actually know for a long period of time, it won't be something new to ya'll. Heehe.]

I don't think my hard work was being appreciated. Even at this kind of age and a ''gooD" school to be in, I still have someone bugging me to get home straight after school. Sometimes, I ask myself, ''After so much I had done for you and myself to get this far, don't I even deserve to have a little fun?''

I really feel so envious looking at photos of teenagers and their mom and say ''I love you. My pillar of strength; my EVERYTHING'' Why can they love their mom while getting what they want and giving nothing in return?

They want me to make them feel proud of me. I did. I'm the only soul, in my family, my relatives, that have five O's and made it to Polytechnic with a good course that guarantees a good future. I know, to most of us, now, getting to polytechnic is something COMMON & easy. I know, I should not even boast about it now, at this stage, because I haven't even got a Diploma. I think, even if I get a Degree, it's still not appreciated. I'll still be caged and used. Where are the rights I deserve?

Parents are wonderful people that bring you to the world full of wonders. Fills you up with happiness, shower you with love and acts as a pillar of strength. Love you for who you are and not what you can do for them. Being there whenever you need them, being the bestest friend you could ever have in the whole wide world.

Lotsa Love to those readers who survived reading this post till this very last line.

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Thursday, July 27, 2006

6:19 AM
Gosh . Stressed . Fucked Up .

Now i'm in class . Today's module is Computing and Mathematical Methods . Groups were reshuffled in the morning . And my new team-mates are Chiew LinG, AbigaiL , aL and Jason . Dammit !!! i'M liike one leader sia today . One fucking useless leader . i did slides, research and assighned task to my team members . Wooah . Bet my classmates won't believe tis . I jus need to de-stress now, tat's why i'm bloGGing .

The slides i did was irrelevant and nonsence . Like fuck sia . K . don wanna elaborate further .

Wanna see my fringe ?? ... i don't care if u don't wanna see it . .

short rite ?? and sumore . my hair not straight . it'll look ugly sia .

Segaff sent me a class photo . But he missed out Nizar and Pauline and Kai yen and Sebastian and Jolyn . Moron segaff !!

Freaking cute sia .

K . it's a short post . Jus clearing my boredoms away . i miss him . i'm tired ... after a long period of research for stupid solution for the stupid problem .

Uuuurrgghh . there goes my grade .

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

9:56 AM
cut hair .

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah !!!! i'M bloGGinG . Miss u miss u bLoGGie . Sorry to had kept u lonely .

k . i juz finish reading the article on Olinda Cho being the ambassador of Marie France Bodyline . Dammit . i am so jealous . serious jealous . well, not jealous but envious . it's 2 different thing ok . OMG !! Look at her now and last time . Freaking different sia .

So, i was thinking . I wanna join sinGapore idol and make it through at least to the top 3 . Then Marie France Bodyline will sponsor the expenses i need to lose wieght . Then i will get the figure i desired all my life . i will be so beautiful, pretty . All the guys will go crazy for me . Those people who looked down and made fun of me jus because i was fat will not believe what they see beyond their eyes . All my ex-boyfriends will come kneeling down to me, begging to come back to me . I then became Miss Singapore and then Miss World . And again, i will be rich and live in big house with my own car and a driver and maids that clean up my house, wash my laundries, cook my meals AND HAVE A HANDSOME, LOVING, CARING HUSBAND AND I ENJOY MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST . sad, misery and blablabla will not exist in my dictionary anymore .

Muaahaaha . Me and ma crap . K . after skool, yesterday, i went to Cafe Esplanade and chill . it was Angus Birthday . i sang a birthday sonG out loud for him . So loud, he was so embarassed .

Well well well . i hafta go and cut ma hair . It had grown so fast . Now it's so long . So long ... that it touches my ... my .. SHOULDER !!! very lonG right ?? so i cut it !! Woow . Such a relieve . Now my head feels so much liGhter . i liike wat the ah moi did to my hair . Especially the behind [k . ermm . don mind my enGLish] . BUT !!!!!!! i hate my frinGe . it's too short . But it's okay laa . it'll will one day grow too . wanna take a look ??
There you go ..........................................................

Half my hair is BLACK ! and another haLf is the bekas i hiGhliGht . cool huh ? ermm . not really . heehe .

Segaff showed me something he created for our classmates . Some South Park customized character . And that South Park resembles me .

Segaff cant find a South Park wearing headband . i wore that cap before to school . So yeah .

Amir . This shameless dude actually volunteered to be in my group and claim that he could lessen the amount each and every one of us has to do .[One of my classmates have to be in my group as there's oni 3 person in my group and there's oni 4 groups in class today (K . oni republicans understand what i said.)] But actually, he wants to play game !!! See ?? He's adding BURDEN !! Muaahaaaha . We crapped a lot today . He's NONSENCICAL HORMONES was so active today . K . You know amir loves to kick people's butt . He didnt literally kick it . He swings his leg from the side to behind [uuurgh . i dunno how to describe] and it hits my butt and my finGer !!! Dammit . My finGer freaking hurts . It was turns red . As red as an apple . [Muahahaa] Serious . i cant move my finGer for that moment . i wanted to jus cry but i laughed and cried together . and he sing the sonG "Rock Show by Blink 182" like tis, "i'M fell in love with the girl .. err .. next to me .." Haaha . i was beside him . Carazie laa he . muahaaha . k . the photos below, shows how he was today .

Ifad . a lil bout him today . well, actually it's not a biG deal . But yeah . Not in details laa . In the morning . he ask me why is there "Ifad ?? No big deal .." at my taGboard . So i explained . tat's like the first time he IM me without me IM-ing him first . k . No biG deal . Then i asked him whether he got 512MB thumbdrive or not coz amir wanted to transfer a game from my lappie to his lappie . Then he kpo, he want to know why i need thumbdrive, so i tell him . Then we started to talk about game . First, we meet outside our class to pass the thumbdrive . Then meet again to return the thumbdrive . Then meet again in my class for him to transfer some game . K . haaha . den after skool, i saw him in some football shit . Ermm . Jersey ?? And short pants ?? Yea . Something liddat . So i was like "Hey ifad !!! Wer u goinG ?? TouCh RuGby huh ?" And he's like "Huh?? TouCH RuGby ?? No laaa . nk peGi maiN bolaa ar ."

K . tat paraGraph bout ifad was a lil bit too in details . But i was actually forced by someone to post bout ifad, in details, to prove that i don like him . K . tis is a lil too childish . i wanna tell everyone reading . I do NOT have a crush on ifad . DO NOT . I do NOT have a crush on ifad . Maan . i feel like typinG it down millions and billions of time . FISH !! i don waan everyone to get the wrong impression . Liike wateva sia . i mean . i'm just making friends . FRIENDS . Got it ?? Please laa people . We're in POLYTECHNIC . not KINDERGARTEN . Grow up . K ???

To Ifad, ignore the others . We're just friend . Well, can't help it . I'm just to friendly . Cheers friend .

K . i'm now so addicted to the song "Torn By Natalie Imbruglia"
I sang it out loud in class today . Almost the whole sonG .

I thought I saw a man brought to life

he was warm he came around like he was dignified

he showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored

you don't seem to know - or seem to care what your heart is for

I don't know him anymore

there's nothing where he used to lie

my conversation has run dry

that's what's goin' on

nothing's fine

I'm torn

(chorus)

I'm all out of faith,

this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed

lying naked on the floor

illusion never changed

into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

you're a little late

I'm already torn

so I guess the fortune teller's right

I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light

but you crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care,

I have no luck

I don't miss it all that much

there's just so many things

that I can't touch

I'm torn

(chorus)1x

there's nothing where he used to lie

my inspiration has run dry

that's what's goin' on

nothing's right I'm torn...

(chorus)2x

the lyric is not that right . i wrote it down by myself . So don't trust it .

Hmmm . i started to hate my surroundings now . [except for some] liike everything doesn't go right . everything is so irritating . liike people trying to be funny but they're actually irritating . People thinks they are good but actually they are the worst . Take note of this . Doesn't mean i smile to everything, i'm totally fine with it . It's jus tat i couldnt be bothered . i jus cudnt seem to be fucked . like i don give a fucking damn . Seriously . i might be hinting to those people i'm close with and those people i see everyday . i jus do not want to destroy my life by avoiding tis kind of people . i have no choice but to face this fucking irritating bastards everyday . Jus watch every single moves u did and every single words u say . My reaction will jus be a SMILE . but deep down . i'm actually waiting for the riGht time to bLow off my top . Jus wait and see .

K . This entry might be complicating . At one paragraph, i'm happy . Next, i'll be anGry . Then crazy . aNd whateva . k . amir treat me apple struddle !!! gotta eat it now !!!

FUCK !! FUCK !! it take me hours to upload the photos !! fuck !! 2 more photos and i GIVE UP .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoll

Monday, July 24, 2006

7:54 AM
MTV t-shirt

hey heyy !! i'm feeling so gay !! as in happy . got it ? nevermind . BY THE WAY, dad bought me another t-shirt . No no . it's not just an ordinary t-shirt . The brand is "MTV" . k . Tell me where would you get MTV t-shirt in Singapore ??. i wanted it badly . i dunno why . it's like something rare . i think . but YES !! i got one now . it's nice . black and grey . wanna see it ?? there you go .

i'M in love with it .

[don bother asking why i cut off my head .]

I'm gonna wear it tomoro to skul !!!!

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Sunday, July 23, 2006

6:45 PM
Oooo Weeee .

Let's jus skip the part about what i've done and everything . Nobody's interested anyway [yeah . i know]

Well, you know when you are bored . And you started to think stupidly . Like inventing something or be the first person to do this and that . You know ? K good . I was thinking . You know, smoking is bad . It's such a waste of money and time . BrinGs you no good and it will harm your health . Some people smoke because they just wanna fill up the empty part of their life . In short, i admit that smokers has no life . Is it ?? Hmmm . Depends on the individual .

So, as i was thinking . Some people actually believed and claimed that smoking make them lose weight . BUT ! Smoking is unhealthy . So, why wouldnt somebody invent "food-cigarette" ? Like you know how we have Skylight [SKL] strawberry & cherry . And DJ Mix Strawberry and Green Apple . And OranGe Peel . Why wouldnt there be chicken or fish or even Fried Rice, Pasta or Pizza Cigarette . And it's not just an ordinary "food-cigarette" BUT ! it's healthy, does not harm your health and you would feel like as if you are eating . It will fill you up . Hmmm . My brain cells going wild . Wahahaa . Then, with that "food-cigarette", you can lose weight . Waahaaha . If oni some scientist or genius read this entry of mine and bring it up to the ministry and they started inventing "Food-Cigarette", maaaan ... i would be so Famous !! Like Beyonce or Whoever [cant think of anybody else right now] People will give me rewards for having such a creative idea . I will be rich and live in a big house with my own car and a driver and maids that clean up my house, wash my laundries, cook my meals . Daaamn . IF ONLY .

And you know, now i'm so addicted to the game called "DTXmania" . You know the game in the arcade where they will play a song for you and you have to beat the drum to the rhythm of the song . I was practicing The Reason By Hoobastank, Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day and Bring Me To Life By Evanescence and as i was playing, I think again . If I can really beat the drum to these songs, the band started to find out about me and have me as their drummer . Or i'll be the first best drummer in the world . And these words had been playing in my head ----> "NurfatiN Binte Ali akan menggegarkan dunia hiburan kepada seluruh dunia pada masa hadapan !!!!" Liike WOOOWWW !!!!! And again . I will be ricch and live in big house with my own car and a driver and maids that clean up my house, mash my laundries, cook my meals AND HAVE A HANDSOME, LOVING, CARING HUSBAND AND I ENJOY MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST . sad, misery and blablabla will not exist in my dictionary anymore .

K . i think i said enuff crapp . Need to sleep .. ZZZZzzzzz .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Saturday, July 22, 2006

8:31 AM
Yeaah !!

Time: 8:42a.m.

Venue: W26A

Companion: Al [Ma classmate]

Listening To: Facilitator Going Through UT answer

Amir bought the headphone he is dying for. Its cool. It cost him $89 .

See ?? The black part is where the music comes out . So, the one on his left is on his ears . And the one on left is on my ears . See that ?? That thing can turn . K . No big deal .What i know, he love it so much .

This photo below, it was candid . Serious . We didnt pose for it . We didnt even notice that Sham took our photo . He's beatboxing to a song . And I'm impressed . See that ?? Haaha .

K . Jolyn brought her teddy bear to school . Don't know why . It's so cute . Now, i just realized, i had never owned a teddy . Sad right ?? Nevermind . I don't know how to love them anyway.

K . i didnt really sleep . How to smile while i'm sleeping ?? Haaha . it was a pose . Ain't i cute ??

All i can say. POOR TEDDY .

That photo, was taken, during 3rd meeting. A time wen we were supposed to be in class . BUT !! i'm in the BOYS TOILET !! proof: Look at those things behind me . K . i'M not alone . That's sham's leG . We stealing toilet paper from the boys toilet . Coz we run out of toilet paper laa .

K . Went home . Wanie is at home . I miss her man . She'll turn 1 on National Day . And now, she can walk . Hmm . Big deal right ??

YEAH !! PAUL TWOHILL WAS IN BOTTOM 3 !! love it . But he's not out yet . Uurgh . i really hope he'll do better next week . Paul, i miss ur good voice . Please . Try your best to win my heart . Muaahaaha . Lame .

Maan . i miss him . Seriously miss him . i didnt meet him on our 1 month . [i noe u guys wud be like, "eleh, oni one month !!"] Seriously, i miss him . Haizz .

Today, i didnt wake up late . It's Racial Harmony Day today . I wear a "Baju Kurung" i bought 2 years aGo . i still can wear it !! liike WOW!!

K . i look stoopid in the second pic . But i love my hair . Its liike larGer than usual . Weeeeee ~~ .

Ifad's wearing white chinese traditional costume for guys . He said it was "Qi Bao" . Haaha . "Qi Bao" is for girls laa . Daamn iyliee . i dared he to get him to our class and pretend that i want him here, in my class . And she really did !! He came . Standing at my class's door . And i was like "Err . You can go . She's crazy" Dammit . I was so embarrassed . Iyliee !! I know i embarrassed you in the lift that time, but this is way too much !! Haaha . i dont mind . at least i get to see him . Haaha .

Hafidz was wearing white baju kurung with songkok . Maan . He look like he want to go Nikah or attend some religious class. Haaha . So cute . I was liike laughing wen i saw him through the glass panel, before i even afford to enter the class . He rocks laa !! Love you laa Hafidz .

Sad sad sad . Amir did not participate in this celebration . He didnt wear traditional stuff . He wear normal T-SHIRT with pants . Reason is, he's working after skool . You know, Lifeguard . So, it'll be troublesome. i understand boy .

OMG !! i actually took the whole day to post this entry . Haaha . i'M at the library now . it's 5:21 p.m . Class ended late . Communication problem for week 12 is irritating . it'LL take a lot of time . i have to defend Apple's Advertisement which is misleading that it is not misleading . Haaha .. Understand ?? I don't . K . i'M hunGry . So hunGry . i skipped lunch today . Gonna grab a light dinner at home . Update again tomoro !! Whoops . it's weekend . Maybe next monday . I dont haf internet access at home .

Bye !!!

LoveLove

]]*OranGeDoLL

Friday, July 21, 2006

1:43 AM
Approximatelyy .

Time: 10:00 a.m

Venue: In W26A

Companion: My Dearie Classmates

LiSteNing To: How Can You Mend A Broken Heart By The Bee Gees

And after class[yesterday], i saw some chilli sauce, mayonnaise, pepper, salt and coffee-mate [MacdonaLd's] left on the table. Then, the next miNute, i realized that, me, Amir and Nizar started mixing all off it in Amir's contaminated SoyaBeaN. Some people said they'll give me $10 if i drink it all up. But Zhao Yang say he'll pay for my luNch if i don't driNk it. So, what do you think ? I driNk it or i didNt driNk it?

After skool, took photos with Starmie, Semanter, Sham and Iyliee . Haaha . Out of a sudden.

THIS IS SHITTY . I CAN LAUGH MY INTESTINE OUT LOOKING AT SHAM [IN GREEN]

Went back home with Syahiraa . We were fighting about the meaninG of "Approximately" .

Me: Syahira . Do you know how much is the KFC's Chicken Chop shit?

Syahira: I dunno .

Me: Approximately ?

Syahira: Approximately? i tot i said i dunno !!

Me: Ya laa . Tat's why i said "approximately"

Syahira: Approximately is exactly . How to know the approximate price if i said i dunno ?

i didn't argue much . agree with her . and walk all the way thinking that i had been having the wrong meaning for the word "approximately".

So , i decided to call people up to ask . And i was riGht !! Syahirah is wrong . Approximately means nearly: not exactly, but nearly or roughly. Syahirah .. Note this down . NOT EXACTLY.

reach home at 8. Momma is still nagging. Is 8 tat late? i jus don't understand her. Watch Singapore Idol. Dammit. Paul Twohill is so dissappointing !! He's singing sux !! Seriously, i wanna cry saak . Haaha . Wateva. As usual, i feel so disgusted looking at Rahimah. No further comments, i didn't watch her sing. Yucks !!

Then at night, Amir called, and we talked. I'ma save the details. Personal. Call him, talk for a while. Amir made me change my mind not to skip skool tomoro. Hmm . i dunno laa . c how . I told him i may not be meeting him tomoro. He's dissappointed . I know . It's our One Month. Jus One Month . So, it's nothing big. Seriouslyy. [The "he or him" in OranGe colour is my guy]

This morning. i woke up late again. 7:20 a.m. Was rushing like fuCk . Didnt even get to powder my face wen i go out of house. There's UT. that's why i'm freaking-ly rush. Reach skool at around 8:25 a.m. Fish !! 5 more minutes to UT . Switch on my lappie in the lift.

Bumped into Ifad. K. No big deal. It's such a bad start today. First, i was freaking rushing, like hell, to be on time for UT BUT !! UT client is down ! Den i haf to type FMT for the whole class !! haa . it wasnt that bad laa . but yea .

__________________________________________________________________

Amir's wearing Orange today . Cap and t-shirt . BRIGHT ORANGE . hee . He's OranGeDoLMat . And i'm wearing brown . He call me KiwitaikDoLL .

The MSN conversation :
mAthz !s trEnd... whAt thE hEll !s thE pr0blEm t0dAy? ! d0n't UndErstAnd... says:
and im really proud u didnt skipped school

mAthz !s trEnd... whAt thE hEll !s thE pr0blEm t0dAy? ! d0n't UndErstAnd... says:
really proud

Amir read what i read about him in my "Microsoft Blogging". I still think he shouldn't had read it. Maan . i dun expect our Wonderful Friendship would be this confusing.

Amir, i'm sorry if i jump to stupid conclusions without enough stupid evidence to support. But seriously, i miss the times we used to haf las time. I may have changed my behaviour towards you, be it you noticed it or not. But !! i didnt change as much as you do. I jus wan u to remember tis, you'll always be my friend no matter wat. I'll always give you my full support and you're a friend dat have a special place in my heart. Muaahaaha . So dramatic. But yeah . I'm serious.

That's all for now . Be back with more shits .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Thursday, July 20, 2006

4:42 AM
McDoNaaLds .

Time: 1:00 p.m
Venue: In W26A [My ClassrooM laa Goon]
CompaNion: My Classmates [Muaaha]
LiSteNinG To: Anytime By Ray J [From Amir's Lappie]

Maan . i was so tempted to bLoG . i have not finish the day and yet, der's so muCh tat happen . First, i woke up late; 7:15 a.m. Haaha . But still, i'm not late for class . Heez .

Ifad accepted me oN MSN already . Short Conversation . Muaahaaha . He skipped haLfway . Saw him waLking off . Ha-haa-ha . Notti boy .

Den ... Iyliee is craving for MacdonaLd's Breakfast . Hmmm . it souNd so appetizinG . i didn't eat McdonaL's for like YEARS . so we did !!

Firstly, we compile our orders . . .

On our ceilinG-to-wall white board .

[see the "oranGe"(da fruit) on the board ?? That's me . haaha . k . wateva . ]

Den we call, collect our orders and ...

Here we are !! With the FOOD !!

Den .. it's tiMe to eat !!

Me and Iyliee . . .

[Semanter commented tat my nail colour and the chilli sauce on iyliee's burGer is da same . Muaahaaha . Izzit ??]

Da tongue ??? It was folded . Literally folded . and it stays . k . ermm . it my tonGue .

Tat's wat we do after we had our breakfaSt . We talk crap and everything. Erm . Like what are the weird-yet-special things we can do . So, i can move my specs [while i'm wearing it] without touching it and fold my tongue . Iyliee can also fold her tongue, but it oni stick fer awhile. Iyliee and Nizar can move the bone at their knuckle [uurgh . i dunno how to explain] den iyliee can also lick her elbow . Ben can move his ears, like as if he atached a string at his ears and pull it . Haaha . See ?? i toLd you, my classmates roCk !!

Amir was sharing with me some "Poppin" [some kind of daNce that he's so interested in] video . There's alot and all of them was super cool . My jaws dropped on the floor when i watch it maan .

Today, i also found out that there's some "Class Politics" goin on in my class. Like wat the hell . . I'm so confused . Serious .

So lonG readers !! Be baCk wit more nonsense ....

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

2:59 PM
Bird .

Time: 11:34 P.M.
Venue: In My Bedroom's "Lappie's Table"
Companion: Him On the Phone
Listening To: Some Shits On the Radio 98.7FM

Nothing much to say today .

Today's colour: Blue & Turquoise .
Amir call me BlueberryDoLL today .

HighliGht of the day :

Get Amir to help me get one of the boy's e-mail from class next door. I liike that boy !! He's so cute . Liike *droolz* . So cute laa . One of God's masterpiece . So thick skin seyy . I no shame . Muahaa . He's name is Ifad .

I was sitting with Syilaa at school's canteen . Eating, surfing net and was on the phone with him . Den suddenly, a small bird, drop from nowhere to in front of us . it was lying down FLAT . There's like slight moves . It was like as if its like dying . Den, a girl came to pick it up . Next minute, it started to fly . fly far far away . Hmmm . Is the bird acting or wat ? Weird huh ?

On the way home, me and Suhailah (Suhailah = Syilaa) was talking bout our secondary school life . Mrs Tai, our POA teacher was part of the conversation . Guys, u remember ?? B-U-U-U-R-D-E-N . Haaha .

Haizz . I'm tired . ZZZZZzzzzz .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

2:44 PM
Ice Cream !!

Time: 11:13 p.m.
Venue: In My bedroom on my Bed
Companion: My Beloved Lappie
Listening to: Do You Love Me By Dave Clark Five

I just finish watching Hikmah. Maan . I knew the marriage is gonna happen . But poor Ana . She'll be tortured by her mother-in-law . Trust me . *Sob Sob [For Ana]* . Well, today was such a good day . Nothing actually went wrong .

Wore the shirt dad bought for me to school . I was so purple today . Purple shirt with purple headband . W25N call me "Grapedoll" for today . Muahaa . Had lunch with the class today . I wan to spend more time with my classmates . We oni haf 4 weeks left to be together . Spent most of the time with Amir . I was so so so so disappointed . Amir started to smoke again . He's effort to quit has all gone to waste . But he said he can anytime quit as he's not addicted . I can see that too, he does not have any problem quitting . But . WHY ??!! WHY AMIR ?? WHY ??!! haaha . So drama .

Our facilitator, [that's what we call our "teachers" in Republic Polytechnic] Miss Jane Ho brought a huge tub of Double Chocolate Chip ice cream to our class . She said she's treating us ice cream today . Hmm . Weird . Uurgh . I don care . Amir is our class ice cream man . Wee hee hee . He made a double scoop ice-cream cone for me and Iyliee !! Yeah .

Yeah . Da tube is supposed to be biG . it is HUGE . don be deCieved by this photo .

My ice cream becomes bigger and bigger as i lick it !!

[and check out my ORANGE NAILS]

Amir, Me and Iyliee with Double Scoop Double Chocolate Chip Ice Cream on a Cone

Meet him after school today . Well, not actually after school . I requested to released early . Muahaa . Left class at around 3:30p.m. . Daamn . I miss him sia . He cut his hair . So cute !!! *Drools* Put wax on his hair . Style it for him . Maan . He look so cute . So handsome .

Left his place at around 7p.m. Reach home at around 7:45. Watch Unsangkarable. It was funny despite the fact that Allahyarham Ishak Bin Ahmad could not watch it . It is indeed Unsangkarable for him to go out of a sudden . I know, death is in God's hand . We cant predict when and where .

Now, I'm lying on my bed . With my laptop on my lap and there !! My phone rings !! Gotta go answer !!

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Monday, July 17, 2006

2:42 PM
Kenduri .

Time: 11:23 p.m.
Venue: My bedroom in my bed
Companion: My pillows and Comforter
Listening to: My momma nagging [she wants me to sleep]

Well well . I jus reach home. So tired . So sleepy . So irritated . [Momma have not stop nagging].

First thing first. My handphone !! Daamn . Officially ROSAK . Now I'm using our family's "standby-phone" . Its huge !! but it's ok . better than nothing . Sony Ericsson Z200 . Daam . So sad . My poor phoney is sick . Boo hoo hoo . *Sob Sob*

Kenduri . So boring . Ended up sleeping for hours with Huda and Atika . Bla Bla Bla . Nothing much there .

I got sleeping disorder . I oni get to sleep from 4:00 a.m. to 6:45 a.m. . Momma wake me up so early coz we need to leave home for kenduri at 8 . Uurgh . I had not been getting enough sleep these few days . Need to sleep sleep sleep and sleep !!

Ouh yaa . Zaki . We had not stay in touch for so long . Very long . And suddenly, he suddenly send me a message . It says

"Chew meats
For You
Pass it back
And forth
In a passionate kiss
From My Mouth
To yours
Sloppy lips to lips
You’re my vitamin
Cause I like you"

Heira said, he likes me. Impossible .
Hmmm . still wondering . anybody noe wat he's trying to say, tag me k .

Love you readers .

Muaacks

]]*OranGeDoLL

Sunday, July 16, 2006

5:19 PM
BayBeats !!!

Time: 01:40 a.m.

Venue: My Bedroom on my bed

Companion: Dadeh [some food]

Listening To: Everytime We Touch By Casacada

Wake up 11:30 a.m. Going BayBeats today. Yeah !! I've prepared everything. What to wear and what to bring. BUT !! I got no $$ MONEY $$. Damn. Tried asking from momma. She get me to vacuum and mop the whole house just to get $12. No choice.

At 2:45 p.m. Atika (My cuzzie) finally reach my house. Siap and everything, i'm done at 3:45p.m. Damn. I was LATE !! I was supposed to meet the others at 3:30 p.m. at Gombak MRT Station. Called them and guess what, they are not even ready. So when down. Buy U-noe-I-noe. Then went 7-eleven to get a drink. Wait for them at station and only Emil is there. Daamn !! I knew it. It'll be ages till they arrive.

At last, at 4:45 p.m. Haiyu, Nuhad, Amy, Idah arrive. We then make a move to City Hall. At City Hall, we go straight to the roof-top, joining Khair, Syafiq, Firdaus and Jasper.

BayBeats !!! Pinholes was the first band that performed [when I was there]. Sit and slack. Talk nonsense and crap around. Then Dina, Isma, Wawa, Zilah and Ilyasa join us. Wee hee . The more the merrier.

Wat the *toot* am i doin ??

Bumped into Aisyah a.k.a CheeseCake. Daamn. I was so shocked she actually "tegur" me. I was looking for Azmi, in the crowd, when somebody actually shouted "Fateen!! Fateen!!" And there, Aisyah standing waving at me. Said Hi and have a small talk. She actually can identify me by my specs. Ha-ha-ha. My weird-yet-unique-crazy-stupid-style specs.

Met Azmi for awhile. Dammit. He's so the Mod-ish. In my heart, I was like : "Oh My Gawd, why is he so cute." Haaha. Talk to him and everything. He'll be performing next Friday on the 21st of July. It'll be on Friday man. I mean FRIDAY. Dammit !! It won’t be possible for me to watch him perform. I can't go out at night [to places that I need to use the train to be there] unless it's weekend. Haizz. Don’t worry Azmi. No matter what, be it I'm there or not, I'll still give you my full support. (=

[I dunno why, I can't get this conversation out of my head ]
Azmi: Eh fateen. Aku tengok kau skarang mcm da lain sey.
Fateen: Huh? Lain? Pe yang lain sey?
Azmi: Ermm. Penampilan kau. [Looking at me from head to toe]
Fateen: Asal ngan penampilan aku? Klakar eh?
Azmi: Tak aar. Dulu lain sey. Mcm very the ermm tak tahu aar pe nak cakap. Tapi skarang macam RETRO gitu.
Fateen: RETRO? Haahaa.

Come on laa Azmi. I know what you mean when you say that. Haaha. Retro? Ha-ha-ha.

Went to have "dinner" at Millennia Walk's Long John Silver. I wasn't hungry at all even though I only have a bite of Momma's Mee Siam for breakfast. Muahaa. Had Combo 1. On the way back to Esplanade, Haiyu was suffering cause her leg "melecet". So I volunteered to change shoes with her. Daamn !! Wrong move. Her shoes have HEELS. HEEL means HELL to me. I had never walk in heels in my whole life. To me, it was some stupid footwear some dumbos invented. Its like as if you are tip-toe-ing. I have to walk in heels from Millennia Walk to Esplanade. Hell !! I was like the tallest among the others. In heels, I feel even taller. SOOOOO tall.

Followings are some shots of me, at LonG John Silver, with Nuhad's Oversized Shades:

That mouth ?? On purpose . Imitating some people's smile .

i like this photo ALOT . i duNNo why .

They actually made a fool out of me at the rooftop. I was forced to walk in the stoopid heels, take out my specs and put on Haiyu's shades. Dammit !! I can't walk & see properly!! My vision was as good as blind. Shades at night. What do you think? Haiyu hold my hand and help my way through. I almost knocked into a few guys. Haiyu did that on purpose. Thanx Haiyu!! BUT !! I made it through !!

Adie [a guy I made friends with at MSN] called and said he wanna meet up. Since he's also at Esplanade, somewhere near me, I said I don't mind. Haiyu, Nuhad, Emil, Amy, Idah, Isma and Dina tagged along. We waited for him. He said he's wearing a blue checkered shirt. I still remember he said some people actually claim that he looks like Achik Spin. I was expecting a cute, fair, Achik's look-alike. BUT !! A plump, ok-ok, not-so-cute guy approached me. He does not even look like Achik. Not a single bit. Moreover, he's lembot LIKE bapok. Maan. I'm not being bad or whatever. But this is the fact. I know I am not that pretty to actually say such a thing about him. I don't mean to hurt him by walking away, laughing my heart out with my friends. Oh no!! I didn't do that right? *Smaack Smaack*

Well, what actually happen was he came to me and said he wasn't Adie. Adie is somewhere else waiting for me. Listening to his voice and the way he talk, I know it's him, Adie. So I said I know it's him. I turned to actually realize my friends had walked off, far away from me, laughing their heads off as loud as they could. I ran to them to tell them to wait for me. I thought Adie followed my back. He didn't. He's still standing there, in the middle of the entrance door. I assumed he didn't wanna stay with me for awhile. Emil pulled me to just go. He then started walking towards us and uuurrgh. It'll take me ages to just finish the story bout Adie.

While we were standing in the crowd, laughing, [we didn't laugh bout Adie's appearance but the fact that he admits that people claimed that he actually look like Achik Spin !! ] Alvin came towards Isma and say "Ey, korang kalau ade hal ngan aku, ckp depan2 aar sial. Ape poser-poser ni sume?"

I suddenly recalled. After dinner, at Esplanade's Lift Lobby, we bumped into Alvin and Emil shouted "Poser" at him.

Haizz … I find this crappy-shit thing CHILDISH. So I just couldn't be bothered. No further comments.

The train was so packed. Everybody in the train is like sardines in the tin. So packed.

Reached home at 11:30 p.m.

Love Love

]]*Orangedoll

Saturday, July 15, 2006

9:27 AM
BleaarGh .

Time: 5:58 p.m

Venue: School's canteen

Companion: Syilaa and Amir

ListeninG to: Build Me Up Buttercup By The Temptaions

well well well . i jus cant leave tis bLog left uNtouched . [baru2 . laGi kemarok aar ni . (=] i juz recieve a call from my momma . She said she going bibik's house. Haahaa . That's the reason why i can slack and chill in school. Muahaa.

Currently, Syilaa is infront of me. Waiting for her boyfriend to call. and then go meet.
Amir, beside me playing COUNTERSTRIKE with his face so close to the lappie like as if he wanna put his whole head into the laptop.

My phoney is trying to teSt my patience . The reception come and go . Then when there's reception, no one could ever get through me. I recieve no calls nor messaGes. So pissed. Uurgh. i got scoLdinGs froM him for nothinG. Fine with me if you don't trust me.

Something is wrong with amir today. He's like clinGinG to me the whole day. Except for luNch. Don't wanna taLk muCh bout it. This paragraph, oni special people know what i mean.

Well, let me paste one of my "Microsoft BloGGinG" here.

11th July 2006
Went to school as usual. I was so blue. I was wearing the new Polo t-shirt dad bought for me, my head band and my barcode pump shoes. Everything was in baby-blue. There was UT. Quite easy. I did not even need the whole 30 minutes like how I always did.

After school, I went to meet Atika with Fairuz, Syahira and Serra. We have dinner at KFC. There was the superman meal. I didn't wanna buy coz it consist of so many things [which were meant for 2 people] and I think only superman can finish it. So I buy the students meal instead.

Was so full and yet the others could even afford to drink at Coffee Bean. I didn't want to buy any drink coz I do not have the money. So Atika offered me to give me a treat. I buy White Chocolate Dream.

Yummy Yummyy !!

FairuZ and OranGe !!

Serra and OranGe ..

Err . wat's wronG ??

As I was drinking it, I played with the whipped cream and everything, suddenly; a strand of hair was tangling at my straw. Obviously, it comes from inside the drink. My drink was like a quarter left. I didn't wanna make a fuss over that strand of hair. But Atika and Serra insisted to complain. And they did. I get another cup of White Chocolate Dream. FOR FREE.
I was so bloody fool. I mean bloody FULL.

[Obviously I didn't finish that drink and brought it home.]

Oh yaa !! i muSt write tis down . i saw 2 diSGustinG LESBIAN there . i was so disgusted and was so dissapointed as both of them were Malays ! And one of them is wearinG TUDUNG . MASYAALLAH .

k . Da photo say it all .

i'M done !! Be back with more crapps !!

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL