The Untold Secrets: April 2008

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

2:04 PM
BitchBitcherBitches

BITCHOLOGY

When I stand up for
myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.

When I stand up for
those I love,
they call me a
bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts
or do things my own way, they call me a
bitch.

Being a bitch
means I won't
compromise what's
in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to
tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am
defined as a
bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and
am proud to bear it.

B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

From an email kakak send to me. I liike!!

Monday, April 28, 2008

9:19 AM
Educations

As I was walking to school one morning, with 70s music plugged into my ears, I noticed something really horrifying. And it makes me ponder for awhile, and I got really worried.

The amount of students schooling in Republic Polytechnic had increased. Just imagine the amount of Diplomas and Advanced Diploma they will get when they graduate. In additional of students from Singapore Polytechnic, Nanyang Polytechnic, Ngee Ann Polytechnic and Temasek Polytechnic. And that makes many of us all to fight for a good position in the working world.

Mum got disappointed when I told her that my GPA could not let me in to a local University. And we sure does not have enough for a University overseas. But I'm not sure myself if I wanna continue studying or just find a job straight after I graduate.

Ok, this post is so not me.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

11:24 AM
Insensitivity

I don't like the idea of them boyfriends to know totally about my private life and what had been happening.
Because no matter how I share, they don't really care because in their eyes, I'm not a girl, I was never treated like one, not like the rest.

Now it's all out, unintentionally, and I somehow hope, I'm treated like a girl, like the others, though I have not much to offer, I still do have heart and feelings. And I'll be more than glad if some of you are aware that there is indeed a difference between joking and hurting people's feelings.

Please be a bit more sensitive to people's feelings, like how you are to those girls you care.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

11:05 AM
Boss's Bitch

I want to be the geek like I used to be again.
The geek where all that is running in her head is just educations, studies, theories, notes,
equations and all that the teachers had said in class.
Not boys, not motorcycles, not all the possible way to earn easy money,
not those pretty gorgeous dress to wrap my body with.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

1:32 PM
Nonsensical

I have got a fucking hell great issue with people faking to be pissed drunk.
What can 2 bottles of Long Island do to you?

Call yourself lucky, I have to leave.
Or you would had gotten my tight slap inherited by my daddy.

If you wants attention, we can give you.
But bitch, you crossed the line today.

I'm pissed. So fuck off.

Monday, April 21, 2008

1:52 PM
Hassaini Hassan

What's up? I know we haven't spoken for a while, but I was thinking about you. And it kinda made me smile. So many things to say and I'll put em in a letter but it might be easier the words might come out better. How's your mother, how's your little brother? Does he still look just like you? So many things I wanna know the answers to. Wish I could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you.

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried to get you out my mind but it don't get no better. As each day goes by and I'm lost and confused, I've got nothing to lose. Hope to hear from you soon.

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on but there's a lot of feelings that still remain since you been gone. I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me. But it seems there's always something right there to remind me. Like a silly joke, or something on the t.v. Boy, it aint easy. When I hear our song, I get that same old feeling. Wish I could press rewind, turn back the hands of time and I shouldn't be telling you.

Did you know I kept all of your pictures. Don't have the strength to part with them yet. Oh no.... Tried to erase the way your kisses taste but some things a girl can never forget.

P.S. I'm still not over you.

Labels: Farewells are sickening

Thursday, April 17, 2008

3:35 AM
Job

Being having to pay for everything by myself is horrible. Plus being jobless, horrendous. I'm fashionably broke. Broken. An outgoing-disabled phone is useless, serious. And I really need to get a decent phone soon.

But being in the final year doesn't allow you to have the time to work.

I need a job badly.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

4:33 PM
Jubilation

Gosh. Reading through my archived entry, I realized how deprived my life is now. I have more fun last time than I have now. I always have photos and interesting things to blog down. But now my life is all about school, school, and ~~boys~~ school. I am in my final year now and there's still is too much to be done in this one year period, before I can finally that piece of paper. Whatever it is, I just feel the sudden need to update here.

Now that school had start, I terribly miss Hawaiians.

Most of us, (boyfriends and I) had learnt our lesson and it is great to see that most of us got ourselves committed to class. Especially for people like Ivan and Faz, who have got their ONE WHOLE SOLID YEAR OF HOLIDAYS. They have got enough and now, they are back, back to classes, talking about lessons during breaks.

One achievement I proudly need to publish here would be Faz, who actually told me this,

"First time sey, during weekends, aku tiba-tiba aku rasa tak sabar sey nak gi skola. Sampaikan aku berhenti sejenak and tanya sendiri "Eh betol pe siak aku rase mcm gini?" Hahahaha."

Translation: "This is the first weekend I spent, counting the hours to school, and I could not believe myself that I feel that way."

Waaaaaah! Mau pe?!! Achievement aar Faz. Congratulations. I am so proud of you.

So yes, I stayed in school till late yesterday with them boyfriends. And I walked home with a cramp in my stomach due to excessive of laughing.

Thanks boys, I won't forgot about going to forum, in the middle of some presentations for the freshmens, and sitting down for a few minutes and then shout "Ar boring aar!!!!" and walk off with all heads turned to us and all eyes on us.

I won't forget the skateboarding with the directory-sign boards.
I won't forget the "Ey. Ey. Ey. EHEM!" at every person walking pass us.
I won't forget Syeikh's China accents.
I won't forget Ivan's "Chu chu chu chu chu" and the robot movements and mini-steps.
I won't forget Faz's hiccups.
I won't forget An's frog dance and pulling-that-boy-hair-hard.

And best of all, I won't forget An and Ivan under the stage, scaring those who walked passed, roaring the the most lowest voice they can, making even boys shrieked, and then the security came, stood there for 5 minutes, waiting for them to come out, but at actual fact, they already did from the other side.

It's hilarious.

Oh and thanks Fayeh for the listening ear.
You made me feel a whole lot better. You are the best.

Last but not least,

Happy Belated Birthday Syeikh! Happy being 20. =D

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

9:22 AM
Camarederie

Its the second day of school and my eyes are toooooooooooooooooo heavy to even lit up. 2 days of school and I can conclude that it will cut down on my lifetime. Seriously. Hahahaha.
I hardly have the time to sleep. Ok yes actually I do. But I can't. And then the sleepy-ness will come only during school hours.

School had been fine. I know, it's just 2 days but the fact that I have to change class almost everyday, everyday seems to be a new day for me. I don't mind changing classes so that I do not have to commit to any class and be involve in any class politics. Hahahaha. That's just one advantage. All of my classmates are fine. Faci's drink my blood up. I just find the new RP marking system S-T-U-P-I-D. They deduct 0.5 from our daily grade if we are late.

Now, RP is trying to tell that they are very particular about punctuality and that it affects our grade if we enter the class even a second later. I swear it is so ridiculous. I am not complaining because I am always late but I don't think punctuality could really affect the insights of the day. What is the motive of deducting o.5 from our daily grades? We are late, does that mean we are not learning anything on that day, does that means we are not contributing sufficiently in the discussions are assigned work? Seriously, I don't think punctuality could affect our grades, in cases like being 10 minutes late in the class.

Argh, to hell with it.

So yes. I am scrolling through the photos in my laptop and picking out those I have yet to upload in my blog. Those that I can, that is. And it makes me do some recalling that happen in the holidays. So here they are. ENJOY!!!

I didn't meet the girls neither had I been meeting the boys for a very long time. Reason being, each and every one of us are too caught up with our own things to do and our life. So finally, in the middle of the holidays, we get to meet up.

With the girls at Jurong Point without Aisha.

Phat happened to be attached at JP's Watson. So the West side girls, being such sweethearts, dropped by to peek on her.

Lunch at banquet and damn, hell yes, I turned myself into humpty-dumpty during the holidays,
and so, I decided to cut down.

Head to Coffee Bean next.

From ugly, to uglier.

Sweet sweet Eeqa.

Four of us yea.

The happy happy fat fat girls.

Phat you rock.

It defeats the purpose of getting a diet snapple when I added tons off sugar syrup to it.
And Phat makes a good promoter.

They complete my day. Just lacking of Aisha.

So next up, the boyfriends and their girls.
Fayeh treated us dinner at Pattaya Garden to celebrate Ryna's birthday.
So here are some on the pictures.

Ain and me.

Dale takes good random random candid candid shots.

Us seated, while waiting for birthday girl to arrive.

I was bending down to get my bag when Faz snap this.

An, Faz, Ifad. The used-to-be.
Dale, Me, Sheikh.

And finally she arrive.

So Fayeh start the ordering. Tom yam soup, chicken omelette, prawn omelette, fried calari, sweet and sour fish, baby kailan. Everything two sets each.

It feels really incomplete if the day is filled without any jackass act. So here it is.

Sucking up the soup with the straw, in a quite high-end looking restaurant,
having all eyes on us.
I'm the photographer, so I'm not one of those who did that.
For once, I truly understand the meaning of E-M-B-A-R-A-S-S-I-N-G.
But hack, with people like them, your life is so much brighter than others.

Us all.

And this is our desert cum birthday cake.
Swensen's ice cream cake.

The beautiful Winnie and Friends cake are now in separated pieces.
Yummmmehhhhhh!

Another group shot.

Awwww. Sweet kan? And and and . . . Oooops, it seems like she bitted something NOT-ice cream, something hard.

It's a freaking R-I-N-G . . .
Sweeeeet kape ?!

They left me green in envy seyy.
Jealous tau!

And the boy and girls.

Thanks friends for the laughter and joy you guys brought upon me.
Thanks for the beautiful memories that had brighten my life.
Now I miss my family. =)

Oh oh and CONGRATULATION Faz.
You are officially a proud graduate of BBDC.

Labels: Boyfriends, girlfriends

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

12:12 AM
Back back back!!!

FAI² says (11:00 PM):
aten.
kau tk update blog dari 12th feb eh?

☆ Orangedoll says (11:00 PM):
aar
asal eh ?

FAI² says (11:01 PM):
psl kan..
aku hari2 check blog kau tapi tk update. haha.
aku suke bace entries kau.
(: colour2.

She's the reason I am updating now. Hahahaha. So yeah, I am really sorry for not updating this dusty blog for so long. The problem with is, when there is something interesting that happened in my life, and there is toooooo much photos to be uploaded, I get a little bit lazy to start editting just to get it published here, so I will procrastinate. And when I procrastinate, something much more interesting happened, and more photos are to be uploaded, I got so lost, I dunno where to start so I procrastinate again. So that's what happened. I have yet to upload photoson the 15th of December where Phat, Aisha, Heira, Eeqa and I went out together for a huge seafood dinner at sakura and a sheesha later on, and I proceed on to club. And then photos at Powerhouse, Zouk and Phuture and many more with the girlfriends and the photos at some other clubbing sessions and the Terengganu photos and more more more!

So it was Terengganu from 6th - 9th of Februay 2008.

4 days 3 night camp on 16th-20th of February 2008.

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What you read above are written 2 months ago.
So let's just proceed to today.

So much to my surprise, 3 months had fly in a blink. K tu bedek aar kan. But jyeah. School had started and still, this blog had collected millions of dust. Hahahaha. Sorry for the lack of updates. Reason being I have got another site, Livejounal. It is locked. 100% LOCKED. Hahaha. So if you wants full access, be a part of La Familia. Add me up as a friend and you are given 68% of access. I found out that a kin of mine had been reading this humble blog of mine, and only tell momma how life had been going on outside. I feel so EXPOSED. So yes, with immediate effect, things published here in my bloggie would be limited. Sorry loyal readers. Sorry to have dissappoint you. Nevertheless, I am working hard to make this blog back up to the chart with my colourful words and beautiful pictures.

A lot of things happened within this 3 months and the experience indeed made me, err, change, somehow. Ok, lesson learnt, but hell how am I not supposed to repeat it again. So to hell with the problems and all, this entry is gonna be a FUN FUN FUN entry!!!

I know, what you are going to see below is so outdated and bercendawan. Nevertheless, this are the dinner pictures with my girls.

The food. We have Tom Yam Soup, Kangkong Belachan,
Crunchy Baby Squid, Sweet and Sour Ikan Kerapu,
Ermmmm, and many more that I can't remember.

The happiest women on that night.

Mother-daughter love.
Love yaaa mummehhhhhhhh.

Pretty girls with their spastic face. =)

Phat and Pussy.
Me the nurse. Hahahah.

We are bad girls with good girls' face.

Then we head down to Al-Majlis to Al-sheesha.

Eeq was having some problem with some people.
And we girls, with full concern, help her through.
But then again, looking at the photo on the right, we girls look so nosey.
Hahahahaha

And there is this one guy working at Al-majlis.
Many find him cute and hot, but I don't.
Too baek-looking for me.
And mentel them got their number.

Hhahaha. It's great walking down the memory lane, talking about the fun we used to have and it had all been forgotten.

School has started today. As dumb as this may sound, I am very nervous the night before, nervous like it is my first day in year 1. HELL-O! I'm in freaking 3rd year siak. Hahahaha. Oh yea, speaking of which, I was supposed to be retained in year 2, yet again, but to my surprised, I was assigned to a year 3 class. And I have a complete 5 days of school while most of my friends have 1-2 days off for themselves. But it's ok. I'll take this as a punishment for having the self-proclaimed holiday for a solid academic year, last year. So yes, with the whole new spirit planted in me, I woke up early today, to be in class, not late, but on time. And GAWD some MAT are sure my eye-candies in the morning. Fuuuuhhhhh! Baek pe. And yes, at the moment I stepped into school and gosh! I can't believe it! I'm like in SCHOOL. You mean S-C-H-O-O-L??!!! And and and, to make everything better, class today was Financial Accounting and damn it does makes me recall what I learnt 3 years ago. I was like one of the fews that have accounting background and hahahahaha, acting like a smartass, I contributed quite alot in the presentations today. Waaaaah, achievement kape!