The Untold Secrets: March 2007

Friday, March 30, 2007

4:28 PM
Exultant

K . Tat photo was taken last year . 4th Of August . Wen i was so happy . Coz something happened that day that made me so ecstatic, in cloud nine .

And again . That feeling surrounds me again .

Firstly, class is out . K, i dunno I am so happy about it, but at least this time, I am nearer to most of my friends . W66J . Unlike last semester, I was stranded in W3 like some list child .

And the major thing that made me feel so contented is that i know now, for sure that KARMA do exist . K . ermm . I dunno how to write this down but the news of him getting what he was supposed to get really made me so glad .

I could had done something better . But no . Let GOD do the rest . And yea . I am feeling so exultant now .

Another night out and I hope I will enjoy it .

And seriously, this is dedicated for daddy, even though I know he is not going to read this .

I miss you daddy . I miss talking to you . I miss all the laughters we used to share .
You were there, right within my reach, but neither of us, has the courage or initiative to strengthen the bondings we used to have . Its hard for you to face that I am a big girl now, not the small little kid who won't admit that she wet her pants last night . And you know what, it's even harder for me to face you .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Labels: when will this stop paa ?

2:00 AM
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

Cool huh ? No stupid photos to so called scare the smokers . SHORT AND SWEET .

SMOKING KILLS !

FYI: You can find that in Switzerland .

So, my day out was, marvelous .
Meet my gurlies .
Wawa, Eka, Nuhad, Amy and Nisa .
It was awesome .
Slacking at Starbucks Coffee, ~~with a couple of free drinks we got .~~
Not much photo taken .

ME . AMY . ME . NUHAD .

Den I went for some riding with Nora and her fren's .

Amin ROCKS MY NIGHT !

Went Kaya Toast to have a drink .
and it was on him .
see . he just rocks laa .
Love you laa Amin .

Hehs . Nora, jgn marah aaar .

Ok . That is just the surface .

And so . I think I should put this up .
Afterall, its MY BLOG .
so i don care wat u're gonna say .

So tis was the conversation .

OranGeDoLL™ :HELLO !
**************: yes .
**************:how can i help u ?
OranGeDoLL™ :hehe .
OranGeDoLL™ :wen are u coming to matriculate ?
**************:WTF is tat ?
OranGeDoLL™ :it means REGISTER in RP
**************:for what
**************:im not skooling anymore
**************:im too lazy for skool
OranGeDoLL™ :u sure ?
**************:of coz
**************:so sure
**************:why?
**************:u gonna tell momma bout it?
OranGeDoLL™ :well, if u insist than i would .
OranGeDoLL™ :but i don get ur point .
OranGeDoLL™ :hide for all u care .
OranGeDoLL™ :i don understand why a cousin shud lie about tis matter
OranGeDoLL™ :wen all i do is come to ask . hhe
**************:what?
**************:rileks
**************:i seriously quitting skool
**************:look
**************:im not registering
**************:for whatever shit
**************:werk is impt to me now
**************:not skool
**************:only idiots go to skool
**************:and let me tell u this...
**************:i noe ur lifestyle....ur family...
**************:so i guess u mind ur own buisness and i mind mine
**************:so tell ur momma that im not skooling anymore
**************:and anak cik bedah tak bole masok poly
**************:ok
OranGeDoLL™ :well . coolness .
OranGeDoLL™ :amin said u completed ur O
OranGeDoLL™ :i heard u got to RP
OranGeDoLL™ :and u said u quitted half way
OranGeDoLL™ :i don understand wat the hell u talking about my family's lifestyle
OranGeDoLL™ :wen all i do is ask WHEN ARE U COMING TO MATRICULATE
OranGeDoLL™ :i'm not picking any fights with u
OranGeDoLL™ :but u sound harsh
OranGeDoLL™ :watever u heard about me and my mum
OranGeDoLL™ :and u tink u are too naive to believe tat
OranGeDoLL™ :then by all means
**************:naive?
**************:lol
**************:im quitting skool
**************:seriously
**************:if u wanna get serious business....
**************:im quitting skool
**************:im not goin to register myself
**************:ok
**************:if u really wanna noe the truth
**************:thats the truth
OranGeDoLL™ :yea . great den if u tink that's the best choice
OranGeDoLL™ :i respect ur decision
**************:yeap
**************:thanks ah
**************:btw....i dun need ur kindness...
**************:ur life is urs....mine is mine
OranGeDoLL™ :okay

That's the conversation of me and a cousin of mine . [i can believe i am still claiming her as my cousin, hack ! I'm not that childish . ] Whatever it is . My approach was so polite . I don't understand why was she like dat to me . But i hafta highlight to u guys . she said "ONLY IDIOTS GO TO SCHOOL" .

And so i hafta come to school one day because the photo booth need me . And my job was to take photos of all student that came to register and the photo is for the school's database and their EZ-link . And guess who came to enroll ?

Yes . SHE . SHE came to enroll . I would be bad enough to put her photo here . Coz i have it . And yes indeed . What the hell is she doing in SCHOOL ? i thought ONLY IDIOTS GO TO SCHOOL . So is she trying to tell me that she is an idiot too ?

I dunno why, but her words keep playing in my head . Like i can hear her saying that to me . And i can't get it outta my head . I wasn't in my you-are-so-gonna-get-it mood . Hey ! Call yourself lucky . I would had come to her and her momma give it to her man . But what the hell . She is my cousin . COUSIN . Dang ~~ .

Let's not pollute my wonderful blog talking about her .

So, i had a date . And yea . WCP --> Vivocity --> Al-Amin .
Watch the movie 300 . It was awesome . Despite the fact that i can't tolerate the violence . Nice movie . It is . Indeed .

Eeqa made me do this . Since I'm bored and have got nothing to do . I hope doing this shit could fill up the emptiness in me . Hehs .

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1) When I see my crush, I trembles a lot . I will sweat, like I ran for my 2.4 km even though I am in an air-con room . [Amir seen this happen .]

2) I can cry my heart out, cry like I lost my loved ones and laugh at the same time . [Ask Amir about this, he can go crazy thinking about how I could do it]

3) I hate Mayonnaise .

4) I had never have or sleep with teddy bears/ stuffed toys in my whole life . [Like how most girls would]

5) My photos makes me feel hot . [Seriously, I don't think I look the way I look in photos . Maybe I'm jus as how I look like in my photos . Or I'm just too photogenic . Nevertheless, I love who I am . ]

6) I stalk on a guy who is my friend . =X

Next 6 people, whom I think would be interesting to know about their weirdest thing . Must do k . Buat tau .

1) Ain

2) Mell

3) Polly

4) Giant

5) CaLyn

6) Iyliee

TAGGIES REPLY !!! .

HELL LOADS OF IT . I LIIKE !!

faiz: why you quit zoo sey? kan mcm fun gituk. can i work there? =\ i want a job la. hahahaha!
- a`ar ye . fun memang fun aar . but tat is jus the surface .

Kak Hannyiesz: hiya,Oren.hw's ur day @ sch.? Juz blog-hop lah... Wanna to noe u latest update.
-hee . =D thanx for dropping by .

izzatee: hi fatin! just dropping by here at your blog. anyway, i changed my blog. thats why i never update there. take care! & u take cool pics with animals in the zoo. hehs. nice!
-ok . will re-link u . very very soon . i hope . cool pics with the animals? yea thanx . i will miss it though .

unknown: i miss u so much! :) take care eh. see ya in sch later!
-yea . i miss u too . and may i noe who are u ?

Nursyafiqah: here i am tagging again and that is a nice photo. aku suke okay paten!
-heehe . kau suke ? aku pon suke !

shafeeqah: i mean u quit ur job at zoo... typo.. :) cheerios!!
shafeeqah: hey u quit zoo? why! LOL. aniwae. link me aite. oh.. i saw de sweetest boy pic in ur blog. [SYED] hehes. hit me back aite. take care :) if u know whu i am la.....
-hehe . Sheesh . don tell him laa k . malu tau . hehe . thans for dropping by though .

Kak Hannyiesz: Thnks for visiting me bloggie. Hopefully, you have a good day! :)
-yes . a good day indeed . and i hope i have more of it to come .

Nursyafiqah: so ade org email kau mintak quotes??? HAHAHAAHAHA
Nursyafiqah: diam ah oren.
Nursyafiqah: hahahahahaaha
Nursyafiqah: YOU DINGDONG NEXT TIME POSE NICER PHOTOS OF ME CAN
- eyy pantat . kau takde keje kape ? org email aku mintak quote ? kimaaak . ramai siol . sampai tak terlayan aku .

Norashnillah Mohd Yusni!!: hahahha.. thanks ah.. my full name also.. wow.. yeah it was fun soon to come again hahaha.. well let see how this go this time and maybe get a couple of photo shots for u to put up la ha girl..
-yea . full name . puas hati ? sad the last want wasnt as great as the one before . all thanx to HIM ! YOUR PAPA JAY ! no photo shots ! hmmmph . but still, i love amin . ;p

Ifad: O-R-E-N!! Ako lagi skit nak type "O" kat blakang! haha! Alamak ckp psl OREO, ako lapar! :P
-giler aar kau ifad . siow !

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Labels: I miss my daddy . really . i do .

Friday, March 23, 2007

3:01 PM
Beautifully stained

A photo I edited on random .
What it means depend on the eyes that are looking .
Its for you to understand and appreciate .

No specific message to convey .
Its the beauty of art .

I am going to be away for one night .
So miss me people .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Monday, March 19, 2007

5:32 PM
*Waves*

Mixed emotion . I dunno how I should feel upon resigning Singapore Zoo .
I know . It is indeed a shocking news but I quited .
Nothing could convince me to stay .
I dunno what strikes my head but I am leaving .

After 1 year 3 months,
I don't think that is a short period of time .
I just need a change in environment, I think .
But the passion will still stay .

Leaving the booth that is .
How I felt, only GOD knows .
The tears I shed in my heart,
for that place marks a special place in me .
The memories . The nostalgias .

Maybe I might make a come back .
But not to that little hut ,
located in the middle of the wonderful place .
But somewhere,
I think that would not remind me of the horrifying nightmare .

I don't care what you gonna say for my comeback .

One thing for sure,
I'd pay my debts .
He should deserve what he should deserve .
Retributions . Believe in karma .
There's a blessing in disguise in everything that happened .

And now . due to popular demand .
Haaha . actually for Serra's sake .
This is my new Zara top .

And so I visited Singapore Zoo with my girlfriends .
And we sure to have fun .
Once in a while, i need to come to the zoo, as a visitor, not a staff .
Hehs .

And we sure had loads of fun .
~~Free rides . Free photography .~~

Photos . Rides . Picnics .
Dang ~~ What more should i ask for .
That is pure laughter and enjoyments .

The picnic at Garden with a view .

And we have our second picnic at Pavilion By the Lake .
And we end our day with Ben N Jerry's !!!

Second last day of work .
And everybody is giving me a difficult farewell .
Persuasions . To stay that is .
And how am i suppose to control my tears .

Syed, being so sweet and making use of the last moments he could have with me,
asked me out for a dinner . Haaha .
Not somewhere far .
But at Pizzafari !!!

Heehe .
2 Meat Lover
Mushroom Pizza .
Garlic Bread .
Large Chicken Popcorn
Large Mug Root Beer
Small whipped potato .
For 2 ?
OMG !

And that's the benevolent guy .
The name is Syed .
Don't be deceived by his piercings and hair colour .
He is full of etiquette when eating with a girl .
He is someone you could never say "NO" to .
He is a colleague of mine and eventually we became friends
And I hope we would be friends, forever . I hope .

Kak Siti and I went Upper Seletar Resevoir .
And I swear that place is so beautiful .
It is so wonderful
Very very peaceful .
And Kak Siti and I have our
i-am-so-going-to-miss-you-so-please-take-care,
heart to heart,
problem sharing talks .

From 7+ to 9+
Den we head back to the Zoo/Night Safari
because my bladder receives its nature call
and to get to Ang Mo Kio MRT takes 5 times longer .

Went to night safari .
Just to use the toilet . But instead . . . . . . . . .

We have Ben & Jerry's !!
Miz and Match .
It cost $12++ but we only paid $7++ .
Staff price . K . I am so going to miss all this .
3 different flavours .
Yum yummy yumm yum !!

And here goes all the beautiful shots we took in the wonderful night's darkness . . . .

From just-a-ten-minutes-pit-stop-to-the-toilet to a one-hour-ice-cream-break-and-camwhore . =)

Haaha . So we board the bus to CCK at 10+ .
At 11+ we reached CCK interchange .
So we waited for the 188 bus .
We talked and laughed .
After about half an hour of waiting and talking,
we noticed people were looking at us, like as if we did something not right .
Den, i felt something wrong .
time check- 11:34 p.m
Last bus for 188 - 2300 hours .

And we walk off, feeling so embarrassed .

I swear . That is one of the most unforgettable nights with her .

Last day of work .
I can feel the change of ambiance .
Treating me good .
I felt like princess . I think .

But the feelings i had .
Dang ~~ Its hard to control .

Fatin & Jackson

Fatin & Prakash

Fatin & Norissha

OranGeDoLL & DingDong
a.k.a
Fatin & Hidayah .

Goodbye .

Went to school to watch GenVaganza concert . My dearest darlings are performing . Zack who looks so so so hot that night . Angus who drops my jaw . And Syilah who looks so cute and pretty with her face that gots chubbier .

Look at those eyes .
Ugly ugly eyes .
With black rings .

OranGe . Eeqa . Heira .
The supper we had .
Was awesome .
Den I realized, I had been yearning for their companion .

And than, I went jobhunting with Ifad .
But before we go as planned .
I went to the zoo .
To "pay some debts" .

And I brought this "LITTLE" boy walking around the zoo .
And I sure feel like I am walking with a little boy .
He goes like

"I want to see the crocodile ! And Snakes .
Is there Rhinos? How about Camels ? "

And he got all so excited looking at them .
Funny part is, my colleagues came to him and ask
"U're her boyfriend eh ?"
"She's ur girlfriend ?"

Haaha . My nosey colleagues .
And yea . he said "Yaa . " Or he'll nod .
And i say "I dunno ."

Haaha . But hack . Why shud dey care eh ifad ?

Then we start our jobhunting at Orchard Rd .
Had dinner at Sakura .
And I seriously enjoy the day with him .

And let me finish this entry with a song I would love dedicate to someone .

Katherine Mcphee
Over It

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay.
You call me and I...
And I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone.

Oh and that's why

Your eyes... I'm over it.
You're smile... I'm over it.
Realized... I'm over it, I'm over it, I'm over...

Wanting you to be wanting me.
No, that ain't no way to be.
How I feel.
Read my lips.
Because I'm so over...
(I'm sorry)

Moving on
It is my time.
You never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it...

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt

Ohhhhh, and that's why
Your world, I'm over it
So sure, I'm over it
I'm not your girl, I'm over it
I'm over it, I'm over

Wanting you to be wanting me.
No, that ain't no way to be.
How I feel.
Read my lips.
Because I'm so over.

Moving on
It is my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first a little bit
Now I'm so over
So over it.

So Over It
I'm So Over It

Oh--Oh-Oh--Oh

Don't call
Don't come by
Aint no use don't ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more cryin' in the rain

Oh--Oh-Oh-Oh
Oh-Oh

I'm Over It

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that aint no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)

Moving on and it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over it

So Over It
I'm So Over it
I'm Over It

Taggies Reply .

Fai: huhu.. work and shop. man.. i want to work! give me the work! BOOOOO! meet up soon!! : )
-haaha . u're too late . somebody got it . but hey . i advise, DONT !

unknown: Orange, i miss ya so much!
-Hey! I miss u too . I guess . u are ?

Nursyafiqah: aii heartx euu tuush. lol. anws ape kau bboal sorg pat msn. and and font kau takle nampak la gileee. ape kau type aku tk npk!! tkle baca u biol!
- hehe . sedeh tau org tak layan . tapi takpe . aku tahu kau takleh bace . tu sume aku tulis, aku kutuk kau abes2 punye . Heehe .

brokenheart: dnt 4get to to replied me aite..i tagged u..hartx u!
-I replied u dear . its in the rant . Last part .

Serra: shop and shop. take pics of ur top ah .. den can see..
- haaha . ok sure . its at the top . check it out .

nunu: wah sey! so sweet ah!! i tink i noe who u talking abt. dreads huh?
-arr ye . sweet btol . Tapi memang sweet aar .

Eeqa: kate je nk tido beh update plak. tapi takpe. best. hahaha. bgus pe leh shop sehhhhh.
-Heehe . tak leh tido babe . kepala otak berkecamok siak . haaha . shop sampai da bankrupt iak ni skrng .

And last but not least .
I miss 8 dearest companion .
I am desiring their presence .
I am dying for their companion .
ALL 8 OF US .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Labels: Farewells are sickening