The Untold Secrets: November 2006

Monday, November 20, 2006

9:27 PM
Why me ??

Many said i should try talking things out with IT .
Many said i should just go with the flow .
Many said i should tolerate and be strong .
Many said i should just sit and do nothing .
Many said i should just listen and face it .
Many said i should be nice and obey .
Many said i should understand how IT feel and know why IT is like that .

I know i am strong and i don't wanna disappoint myself .

No one can weaken the strength i have to go on .
No one know what lies beneath my smile and laughter .
No one understand how it feels for it is too complicating .
No one can help me out of this except myself .
No one know how my soul dies as day goes .
No one can bring me the love i need .
No one understand how it is to be myself .

It is weird how i can actually just forget about it
Hyper me jump around the room
Joke, smile and laugh .
No one can sense any sorrowfulness in me .
Not even me .

And at the next minute,
i find myself,
alone ...
Crying .

Pretense had been my bestest bestfriend .
I just can't live without it .
I can't imagine if it does not exist in me .
My life would had been so dark .
I would not be me now .
I may be a girl and all she does is sit down,
isolate herself and do nothing .
Cry till she go blind .
Yell till she go dumb .
Suicide surrounds her head .
For she is such a big feeble,
too weak to go on life .

I love keeping it to myself
I don wish to drag anybody along with my sorrows .
I love keeping it deep down
and not show .

I tried and try and i fail .
But i know, i am strong .
I have strength to go on .

I think . I understand .
I tolerate . It goes too far .
My endurance just died .
But i know, i am strong .
I have strength to go on .

If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you."
--- Winnie the Pooh

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
---Charles Caleb Colton

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"Friendship! is one mind in two bodies."
---Mencius

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

"If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend."
---Stone Temple Pilots

"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay."
---dave Matthew's band

"If all my friends were to jump off ! a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
--- Tim McGraw

"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five real friends, then you've had a great life." ---Lee Iacocca

"Hold a true friend with both your hands."
---Nigerian Proverb

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
---unknown

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Sunday, November 19, 2006

3:43 PM
i desire ur presence

i dunno what i am feeling right now
it seems numb all over

i desire somebody's presence
a presence who used to be there
always

but now,
it's gone .

i'm in need of a strong shoulder
but no point pondering
wen i am only a zilch in his eyes .

Bestie and "Lover" ..

Where are u now ??

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

3:34 PM
Eight Days Shit

I knoe i had not been updating for quite sometime . Had been very very busy and let me spend "a little bit" of my time updating wateva shit tat had happen in the pass week . And btw, i jus feel like starting the entry with a few random photos . And lets get it started .

On Tuesday [7th November 2006]
Tis is a serious critical shocking news . And i knew EVERYBODY will be so happy for me . Since 13th September 2006 to 6th November 2006,
1 month 2 weeks 6 days .
6.85714285714285714285714285714286 week
50 days
3000 hours
180000 minutes
10800000 seconds

Life without handphone !!!

And wen I tell u tis, a lot of people will find it hard to believe . But many will feel happy for me . I got a phone for myself . And the name of my newborn mobby is NokiOren [Nokia+Oren (Malay version of OranGe)] . NokiOren would be my new boyfriend . I am so attached to him . So guys !! Bug off . I’m attached .

NokiOren is the bestest boyfriend I had ever had . He is always there wen I need him . Wen I’m lonely, he’s always there to entertain me with games and music . I can even talk to him . Jus press any digit on it and there u go . He talks to me !! K . Stop my shit here .

This is NokiOren . He loves me so much, he put my photo all over him !!

His side view

Yeah . He can "slide"

Muuuuuuuacks .

I love him so much

On Wednesday [8th November 2006]
Republic Polytechnic first Dance Competition . It is so like “So you think you can dance ?” . There are judges . Solo and group . C.A. did the solo and he won first . Style Methodz did the group and they also won first !! As usual, they deserve it .

Hip hoppers and me .

Melly a.k.a Mael before performing

Amir bought for me an OranGe lollipop . Out of the blue Thanx Amir !!

Pardon the face . Its the lollipop that matters .

This girl, who is so obsessed with NokiOren, takes her photo upside down bcoz she dunno how to

On Thursday [9th November 2006]

Had breakfast at Macdonalds’ with Syaheerah, Suhailah and Syahirah , Purposely came in to the class late .

Oh no no no . That's not my breakfast . That's Amir, me and Ain's cooking .

Suhailah and Syahirah after breakfast .

There was Deeparaya concert in school at Agora . Food and drinks are provided for free . So I had free lunch today .

And there was this one guy whose voice was awesome . I was so impressed with his voice . It simply can jus bring me to sleep . Like i still cant get his voice outta my head . :-X

Camwhored with Iyliee and sham . I am so missing them so much . I miss camwhoring with them and bitching about Sotong with them . Muaahahaaha . The Olden Days .

These are the three people i miss most in W26A .

Zaid was hot today . He was wearing something that simply turns me on . Muahahahaa .

It had been quite some time since i last put the photo of the 3 of us here in my blog .
Nothing changed . We're still loving each other .

Nice shot . I miss artistic photo taking .

Went Bugis after school with Amir, Giant, Ain and Kino . I was Kino’s girlfriend for the day . I accompanied him choose the formal t-shirt he is dying for . Choose the colour which goes well with his skin and the colour of his blazer . And wen we were about to pay, he did not have enough money and he wanted to drag me all the way to the ATM machine to withdraw money . Instead of wasting our time and energy, I paid for it first . And he said to the aunty “This is my girlfriend . See, she very good right?? Pay for me .” Muahahahaa . He and his everlasting crapp .

And even if I meet people around in my life, I will never forget NokiOren . I bought him a new shirt too . It fits him well and he look good in it .

On Friday [10th November 2006]
Classroom was getting so cold . I cant stand the temperature and fortunately, I bought my SUPER-THICK-COMFORTABLE JACKET which Mael name it JK [for some personal reason ;p] . And so, I was still feeling call and I took Giants beanie and put it on .

Don’t I look like I am in Greenland ?? Drinking OranGe Juice .

Meet MR Clean after skool .

On Saturday [11th November 2006]
I went jalan raya . Visiting houses to houses AGAIN, with my polytechnic friends . Uuurgh . Let my hand rest can ?? So let the photo do the talking .

Akmal

We conquered the whole of the top part of the double decker bus .

22 of us .

On Sunday [12th November 2006]
Work work work . Was spending most of my time with Syed . And he told me that he won’t ITE Mr Sexy , Damn . He really do have a hot body man . 6 pax and everything . He works out a lot .

On Monday [13th November 2006]
The school was selling Candy Canes to raise funds for the poors in Thailand . Me, Pen and Syaheerah supported them and got one each .

And after 57 minutes sucking it, my lips, teeth and tongue turns green !! and I sure look stupid . Will never go around RP with green lips, teeth and tongue !! But I sure had fun with it .

I miss Giant photo appearing in my blog . so hear it is . I love you biatch !!

Reply to taggers ...Sori for not replying for such a long time ..

Adna : hey . I was not referring to u ok .

!@#$%: Haaha . yes yes darling . I noe who u are .

Reella: Hi !! thanks for the link yaa . ur link will be up soon too

Iyliee: Giant always act cute !! She’s always like dat . Haahaha . Yupp yupp . My sis is 12 . yaa . There was once, come one thought she was a classmate of mine . Like WAT-THE-HEAVEN .

Kak Hanis: W’salam . to u too .

Sham : yeah sham . I miss u too . miss u so much !!

Iyliee: eyy . buy the phone laa . so we have the same phone . like couple2 . ok wateva . but yea . its worth buyin laa .

Fai: Orange colour was out of stock . so sad . was so disappointed .

Mido : yea hi !! haaha . how long did u take to find my blog . muahahaha .

Princess Syaheerah Islam : I noe !! thanx . hahaaha .

JY : Thanx babe for motivating .

Iyliee : hahaha . let me set that as a new trend . baju kurung and shades to skool !! wahaaahahaha .

Pheww . Tis is such a long entry . With millions of photo . And now i'm done !! Till den .

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL