The Untold Secrets: October 2006

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

5:28 PM
Eid Mubarak !!!

Weee ~~ And so, Hari Raya came again .

Pink is the colour this year .
As usual, the guys will wear a darker tone . So its purple .
We mixed it with a little of blue because there's a little blue detail on our shirt .

My siblings and brother-in-law
Sis's family colour this year was OranGe and Green .
Nice combination sis !!

The "HUNKS" of my family . Brother-in-law, Father and Brother

Siti Zulaikha Binte Ali(12) . Saemah Binte Ali(25) . Nurfatin Binte Ali(17)

And so, this is my one whole BIG family .

In my granny's room .

Another family shot at Mak Busu's house !!

At ibu Ayu's house .

The ladies

The gentlemans .
Spot the most highert songkok ever .
12 inches high !!

At Mak Busu's house .

i like the way my uncle paint the house man .
Wonderful job .

Mak busu and me .
People mistook me for being her daughter .
Do we look tat alike ??

My brother's craziness .

My mum had always wanna shoot me .
She found a gun
But too bad . i found a bigger one .

Casyanie !!
And she knoe i am the only aunty of hers who call her tat .
The pelat, super pelat version of Syazwanie
1 year 3 months now .

Now, it me and her .
i love tis pic a lot .
a lot a lot .

Not forgetting my bestest cuzzies .
Cam-whoring time !!

I'm tired .
i have to get my beauty sleep .
hafta rest coz tomoro is going to be another long, long day

Love Love
]]*OranGeDoLL

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

6:04 AM
Goodbye Ramadhan . Hello Syawal .

Sad . So sad .

Ramadhan is coming to and end and Syawal is almost here . !!!
Sad that Ramadhan have to go, thinking of all the sins that i deed, knowing there's much more good deed i could had done .

Days tat i had skip my fast for fun and have to pay it back .
Oh well, i'm gonna miss fasting . Miss being good and pious .
Eyy !! What am i talking bout, i can be pious anytime .
Its a matter of whether i wan it or not .

Btw, to welcome Syawal, eventhough Ramadhan is here, me and Syaheerah wore Malay Traditional Clathes to school .

And so, i was sitting infront of my closet in the morning . Browsing thru all malay traditional clothes i have, thinking which is the nicest to wear . And then, i spotted my one and only baju kebaya . My orange baju kebaya tat was bought 2 years ago, for my dearest sis wedding . The oranGe baju kebaya which fits a lil too snug for me 2 years ago . Too snug to the extent that the kebaya can jus explode and the button will jus pop off .

K . Cut story short . Now i can run in that kebaya !!! I can jump in it !!
Oooo wee . And so let me present to u, OranGeDoLL and Princess Nur Syaheerah Islam !!

Ooooo . We sure do look so good .

Omg . i was so much fatter last time . So fat . So OBESE !!
The both of us look like Perempuan Melayu Islam Terakhir . Waakakakakaa .

And . i love this pics alot . Alot alot .
SO LOVING IT . but not as much as how much i love her !!!

Oh Syaheerah . U can jus rock my ass off man .
i love u babe . Thanx for the card .

And to all readers ..
Selamat Hari Raya .
Maaf Zahir Dan Batin

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Sunday, October 22, 2006

5:47 PM
Spring Cleaning done !

Are u guys still busy cleaning up the house for the house ??
Yes ?? Haahaahaaa , {Evil Laugh .}

I'm done !!!
Yes i know . 3 more days to Raya and i'm all done .

Sneak-Peek to my room

View from the door . Haaha . That's lappie on bed .

My bed with lappie on it .

My desktop .

Keeping the Zoo spirit alive !!
Peacock feather and leapord's fur . Muaahaha .
OranGey bear with Humpty-Dumpty Bank
And my huge vintage radio .

View from bed .

Entrance to my room .

Taken on random . That's at my kitchen [Duh~~~]

Balcony . Taken from ground level . So i was lying down in the middle of nowhere .
Nice shot though .

Wanna take a look at my baju raya ??

It's in there .
Still wanna take a look ?
*Sticks out tongue*

Aaaargh . tis photo !!!
Found it when i was doing the cleaning .
So, i put it on my desktop table .
It was taken 3-4 years ago .
OMG ! i look so nerdy .
So stupid . Haaaha .
i cant stop laughing looking at myself .

Time check : 2:38 a.m
Aaaargh !! i'm so tired . after all the cleaning .
Its so late already, and i'm freakingly awake !!
Gosh, i gotta go to sleep now .
I've gotta work tomoro !!

Reply to taggies ..
Syahiidah : Ur link will be up soon !! Thanx for dropping by .

shaZy : Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin !!!

Pinky : Thanx alot . Thanx alot alot . And u noe i love u too .

nad : wei . sape kate muke kau ade kat blog aku . aku cakap "NAME kau ade" bingai kau .

MeLL : Hehs . Buat susah2 jek bace . Heehe . thanx . i love my blog too . =D

Syaheerah Islam : How can i not talk bout u guys, my loveliess . You all put in effort so now i play my part by publishing it here in my blog !! And about tat thing, stop thinking too much bout it . It'd been ages ago .

feL- : Hey . thanx alot . No problemo . Thanx for dropping by . Do link me up ya . Ur link will be up soon too !!

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Saturday, October 21, 2006

2:42 PM
I'm so proud . and awed, of you .

Live amongst people in such a manner that
if you die they weep over you and
if you are alive they crave for your company
Act happy, feel happy, be happy, without a reason in the world.

How i wish he noe
how i feel deep in towards him
i just want him to realize
that his greatest moment
is my worst moment
GOD . i love him .

i love him too much
i'd rather see him happy
even if i noe
i'm NOT part of his happiness

Therefore i learnt that
when we can't have what we love
we must love what we have

Thursday, 19th October
Went to break my fast with Amir and Ain at Jurong Point Banquet
Why Jurong Point ?
Because i was dying for Ban Mian . i see all my classmates eating them in front of me during skool time, i'm like craving for it .

We were having so much fun . So fun so fun !! Amir was darn bored . He played with my food . Hang the noodles i didnt eat by the side of my bowl, looking like as if it was some clothes that should be hung dry .

Den wen we were in the train, Amir came up with the topic about laughing with an angry face on . Ain cant stop laughing her heart out . Her face turns red, it looks like its gonna explode . She was the one who intro it to amir . It was originally her idea . Weird isn't she ?? We tried laughing without smiling . Laughing thru our nose and laughing with our eyes wide open . We sure look stupid but who cares ?? We were having so much fun, we laughed so loudly . The 3 of us sounds like 30 people laughing ~!! Haahaa . ROFL .

Today.. 20th October 2006
Is the day i had been waiting for . Anxiously, impatiently waiting for this day . If you notice, i talked about this day in this humble blog on the somewhere on late August . Oh well, on this ordinary yet extraordinary day, my dearest best friend, Muhd Amir Ariffin and my small little girlfriends, Nurul Ain and Nur Syaheerah will be performing !! They are going to show what they had been preparing for 5 months or so .

And as for Amir, it is time for him to show off his talent, popping, something tat he had been wanting to do, since i noe him 6 months ago . He was given to do the opportunity to do a solo-dance on POPPING . I was all so excited about it . So so so excited .

W26A Sem 1 Year 2006 was also there . To give him our full support . All of us put on our one and only class t-shirt . It shows the love we had for each other . Haaha .

And so, the time came . He did so well . Excellent ! He cant simply make any mistake in my eyes . Like i was so awed of him, like how he never fail to make me feel so . I heard a girl standing somewer near me complimenting him . I feel so proud of him . i am so proud, i jus wanna tell everyone there who were complimenting him that he was my best-fren, forever . Even if he fell clumsily on stage . Even if he stumble in front of the crowd . And not because he have some talent not everybody has, but he is truly my Best Friend . Wateva people wanna say, even if i'm not his best friend .

BFF !! B-est F-riend F-orever . I think that wat t means in the movie Just Friends !! BY-THE-WAY ...

The performance was beautiful . It was wonderful .
Great Effort Hip Hop IG !! Or a.k.a Style Methodz Crew !!

And so, let me present to you, the photos i took during the performance

Before the performance
surrounded by his friends cum fans
Posing for his photo to be taken
and of course
i am his biggest of the biggest of the biggest fan !!!

This photo shows how nervous i was
i was so enxious, i dunno why
wanna took photos of him
but my hand cant just stop shaking !!

Already on stage
Feeling so nervous
i can tell
everybody could

There you go !!
Amir doing his first ever solo
in Republic Polytechnic
Showing everybody
the beauty of popping .

Next will be ...
Nurul Ain a.k.a Pinky
The hottest B-Girl in RP .
Walking thru the stage with full of elegance
and then ... start getting krunky with her move !!

Not forgetting ...
Nur Syaheerah Islam a.k.a Princess
The cuttest hip-hopper on earth
Moving to the beat
With two rebonded ponytail
Spot Amir too .
At the back, not sitting, but dancing as well .

Almost done .
Having a break, with a pose .

Style Methodz Crew .
All done with the performance
Princess showing "peace out" with her hand
Pinky showing "Yay !! i'm done" with her face
And Amir on stage doing shoulder freeze .
Oh dear . The photo would had been better if Nadhir didnt suddenly stand !!

Amir's second solo .
It was unexpected, unplanned . It happened all out of a sudden wen the choreographer, Norazhar a.k.a Camou Artist(C.A), called Amir's name to give him another opportunity to present Popping to the crowd

And so, there he was
doing it . Showing it off .
Without reluctancy .

Oh yeah . Oh yeah ..
Amir !! You made it .
I'm so proud . and awed, of you .
Like how you never fail to make me to .

Your dream had come true .
A solo !!!

Watching you doing it on stage is not the same as you doing it in front of me .
i believe tat one day, the talent you have will bring you to where you had always dreamt to be .
And remember, i will always encourage and support you through .
Like wat i did, 5 months ago, wen u wanted to join Hip-Hop IG

Good Job to Ain a.k.a Pinky
Syaheerah a.k.a Princess
oh ya . Ismael a.k.a Melly
Aaaargh . Everybody laa !!

I wished i could publish the videos here too . i'm still waiting for starmie to send it to me .

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

6:11 PM
Randomization ~~

K . I uploaded the photos at random . and so will the entry be . Ermm . Not really aar . i think i will be typing down wat runs thru my mind . So tat means, it's gonna be about anything under the sun ..

I wanna be a love doctor, a love doctor tat get paid and not like what i'm doing now, giving advices for free . Oh my, wat's wrong with me . i don sound sincere . Oh well, i am glad for i noe tat my frens knew tat i am here for them, willing to lend my listening ear and even a strong shoulder to cry on . I am glad tat i knoe tat my frens trust me and noe that i am reliable . Without reluctancy, they noe, i am willing to do wateva i afford to do to help them out .

I feel so appreciated and so please to noe tat my frens noe i love them and dey love me to . But recently, i felt so used . It (a particular person, not gonna be specific if it's a he or she) take advantage of my kindness . Using me like a toy that does not have feelings and heart . Use me and play with my feelings . I seldom take things seriously but this seriously hurts me so . I felt the prick it causes in my heart . The pain was excrutiating . I tried my best to make it feel happy by doing what i think would make it happy, but i failed and it does not even have the courage to make me feel happy too .

i feel so lowly of myself cos it take advantage of my kindness towards it
i feel so lowly of myself because i make it think i can be USED
oh well, i tried to make it happy but something failed me
Cant it jus spare a tot for me and not cancel it to bring me down ?
why is my life always like tis ?
maybe fat and ugly girls like me ought to be treated like tis

It is so heartless . It is such a bastard . I hate it after what it done to me .

Although it is a lil bit indirect, i noe what it's motive really was .

I can't read minds but i noe exactly wat u are thinking .

Kau hilang bila ku tiba, kau datang bila ku kecewa. Terasa diri di persenda.

Dimana berakhirnya nanti permainan sendiwara mu ini. Sesungguhnya aku tak mengerti.

Someone came to me last night and said tis :

"Fatin...2 tell u honestly,

ur inner beauty is much3 more 10x prettier den ur outer beauty. "

No . i am not lying . Why shud i ? I'm not trying to show off or wateva but me myself can't seriously trust tat sentence . I can't judge my own attitude and behaviour myself . But tat was the most sweetest compliment that i had ever recieved which is so hard for me to fully believe if it was true .

Something is wrong with me these few days . Seriously, i am not acting like how i always do . Same old shit . Dying of it .

i used to be so strong
i hav a problem a problem tat had never change for 17 years of life
recently, everything had gone to the extreme
i cursed myself every morning wen i wake up,
for i am still alive
i simply lost my strenght somewer
now i felt so weak,
so weak i wished i would die soon

tat swollen eyes i have this morning
says a lot a lot about how i put on a facade to skool
and give my jovial personality out
deep in, im dying
oni GOD knoes tat

Stop it sey OranGe !! as i said earlier on, i upload photos at random in this entry . I upload wat i feel like uploading . This is a "collage" i made of my beloved secondary skool frens . This is during teachers day . I knoe it had been some time ago but i had yet to publish it here .

Simple but nice . I like .

On thursday, i had Contemporary Issues in Culture and Aesthetics . Its about Reading Art . So i decided to do about Pop Art . i found 2 artpiece .

Andy Warhol's Marilyn Prints

Tears of Milk By Ketna Patel

Both are Pop Art and look how different can it be . Both conveys different messages by using the same theme . Oooo . i'm becoming Arty-Farty . Muahahaaha

http://ketnapatel.com/artworks/paintings/details/tearsOfMilk_d.html

I was chatting with amir wen he suddenly send me tis

Him with his wobbly hands . and so i drew this . Nice right ?

T-R-A-C-E !!!

and iyliee drew me . can u believe it ? she drew me !! muaha . let see how it is .

Haaaha . So not me laa . and so, i draw her too .

looks like her right ? with sepet eyes . Fringe and curly hair . =)

And so, i was surfing the net wen i suddenly decide to go to my secondary school's website and guess wat i found ...

Haaaha . Find me !! That's like wen i'm sec 3 .

Some highlights last week:

When eating a Cafe Gelare with my new classmates .
Sham bought me a Polka Dot headband and a biscuit earing for my birthday . Love it a lot . A lot a lot . Thanx Sham !!
iyliee gave me a small golden pouch . its so nice !
Went out with amir . wanted to watch movie but there wasnt any nice movie to watch . So we jus walk around . Den saw a small lost boy . Poor thing seyy . Den wen arcade, amir get to play 3 free pinball game . went home with stomach cramps due to excessive laughter .

Went to celebrate Kai Yen's birthday with old classmate . Jojo, Turtle, Sotong, Kai Yen, Sebastian, Sementar, her boifren, Starmie, Jin Yan and Amir . Went lucky plaza to play pool . Bumped into Taufiq, my online-pal . Had been chatting with him for months but never meet . Our pool table was beside each other but i do not dare to approach him . Den went to Plaza Singapura and have dinner at Pizza Hut . Syai was working so i got several privileges . Oh yaa !! Amir bought me the Red and White Polka Dot headband that i was dying to buy at FarEast . So happy !! Love it alot . Thanx a million amir !!

I have yet to take photos of my new headbands . No photos wen we wen out . Was having too much fun, we hardly have time for photos !!

To my dearest Nur Syaheerah Islam . I want u to be a strong girl . i noe how it hurts so much but promise me one thing, never keep anything to urself . Amir, Ain and me are here for u . We love u and u shud noe tat . Be strong .

Let me end tis entry with a few cute photos .

OH YAA !! Before i forgot, i need to reply to my tags !!
So sorry my dearest taggers for had not been responding to it for quite some time .

Chicka: Sheesh . i cant believe i did tat too . Haaha .

Turtle : Wateva tat floats ur boat . My OranGe-y Bear is still the cutest !!

Aneng : Haaha . i'm not crying girl . My heart is .

Sham : Sorry aar . We oni have 4 free tix . So so sorry .

Pinky : Oh yea !! i need it too . uuurgh . i'm fasting and thinking of YOUR Ben & Jerry .

Zack : Thanx Zack . i try not to k . =)

iyliee : i like the present u gave me !! i put my athsma spray, thumbdrive, house key in it . All those small2 random things in my bag . It helps me make my schoolbag a lil bit neater . Heehe . Don worry babe . Its the tot tat counts .

Pinky : It is super funny laa !! Stop making me laugh !! My stomach will explode real soon . hehehe .

Sham : Wat Oreng ?? Its Oren !! Muahahahahahaaaha

iyliee : U are right iyliee . Thanx babe .

Pinky : Thanx Ain . Thanx for hearing me out tat night . I love you .

Love Love

]]*OranGeDoLL