Friday ...
Iyliee was crazy today . Or maybe not . I think she forget her medicine or she took the wrong one . Haaha . I had a great day with her today . Guess what's the most insane thing she did . She tried opening my cubicle's door while I was pee-ing !! haaha . Actually I did it to her first . I was waiting for her and I tried to open her door with a coin . It work !! The door opened but obviously I didn't look at her . Then she did to me back . I cant pee with peace sia . I was so scared she would open the door while I was pee-ing . I was like shouting like some crazy-shit . " iyliee NOOO NOOO! i want to PEE okeh.. IYLIEE NOOO..DONT LAAA! ARRRGHHHH! IYLIEEEEE...!!!"
And Iyliee outside was singing the song Karma By Alicia Keys "What goes around, comes aroud ..."
Daamn . I seriously regret doing that thing to her first .
K . ermm . wateva .
I finished school so early . At 1318 hrs, I finish presenting and class was dismissed at 2 . I was so happy . I was like jumping around the classroom, yelling my intestine out coz I was so contented for class ended so early . K . wateva . But soon, I realize, it's no use . I have no where to go, but home and no one to be with . Amir left with Ain . =( Iyliee's meeting her boifey . Everybody else who have boyfriends meet their boyfriends !! Daamn, I seriously regret breaking up with him sia . Haaha . I could have met him and spend time with him in times like this . Uuuurggh . And the rest of my classmates planned to watch movie . I didn't wanna join them coz I have not enough money for a movie !!!
So I have no other choice but to wait fer the rest of my gurl-ies at RPC . ALONE !!! it wasn’t tat bad afterall . I spend my time doing things that are worth it . Haaha . I did my RJ . A long one with good content, I guess . and check my Email’s inbox which had millions of messages unread . haaha . den, I came across an Email . It was so sad . It touched my soft heart . It reads:
7th grade
stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn’t notice me like that, I knew it.
After class she walked up to me and
asked me for the notes she had missed the day
before and handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know that
I don’t wanna Be just friends,
I love her but I’m just too shy,
and I don`t know why...
11th Grade
The phone rang.
on the other end it was her.
She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over
because she didn't want to be alone,
so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes,
wishing she was mine.
after 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie,
& 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me,
said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know
I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don’t know wHy
Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is Sick" she said; he`s not qonna go.
well I didnt have a date and in 7th qrade
we made a promise that if
neither of us had dates we would
go together just as "best friends".
So we did.
Prom niqht
After everything was over
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her,
She smiled at me
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn`t think of me like that
and I know it.
then she said
"I Had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know that
I don`t want to be just friends,
I love her but Im just too shy,
and I dont kNow why
Graduation Day
a day passed,
then a week,
then a month.
before I could blink,
it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body
floated like an anqel
up on staqe to qet her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didnt notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,
"you`re my best friend, thanks!" and
gave me a kiss on the Cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know that
I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love her but I`m just too shy,
and I don`t know why
A Few Years Later
I sit in the pews of the church.
that girl is getting married now.
I watched her say "i do" and
drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn`t see me like that
and I knew it.
But before she Drove away,
she came to me n said you came!"
She said. "thanks!" and
kissed me on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know that
i dont wanna be just friends,
I love her but I`m just too shy,
and i don`t know why
Years passed,
I looked down at the coffin
of a qirl who used to be my "best friend".
at the service they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her hiqh school years.
This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn`t notice me like that,
and I know it.
i wanna tell him,
i want him to know that
I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don`t know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me...
I wish I did too.
I thought to myself, and I cried
Freak . I was so touched by it laa . Like gosh . if tis kind of incident really happen in my life, I will regret and will never forgive myself .
Well, this story also reminds me of a friend I had . I wonder how she is right now .
It all begin with a smile . And not long after, they became close friends . They were so close, so close till they felt the world revolve around them . They try spending maximum time with each other .
She cant explain her feelings towards him . But secretly, she wanted him to be hers . She didn't dare to confessed it to him as it might spoil the relationship they have .
He would share with her about his crushes (as in "Crush" . Those people u find them cute and like them . You know, crush .) and she pretended to be fine even if he have a crush on her own girlfriends. But she know who she is, where was her stand and have no place he would place her in his heart .
As time goes, he became busy with his own life, it hurt her so much to see him with someone new .
Haizz . I know exactly how she feels . Seriously ..
Anyone, if you are hiding feelings from me, please, please confess before I go . Haaha . Perasan saak .
At 1427, I received a call from Nuhad . But it wasn't from Nuhad . It's from Nuriman !! Haaha . He was dying to meet me . He miss me so much . So much till he could die if he didn't see me tat day .
Oh my Gawd . I still cant believe . In fact, it's hard for me to believe, he still have feelings for me . Like GOSH . I still remember the time wen he confessed tat he like me . I dunno wat to say yeah . K . ermm . Now, he still keeping tat feeling for me . Like err .
He fetched me and we wen to slack and chill somewer . K ermm . I acted like normal, well, people like me, I can really pretend not to be awkward in front of a guy . Seriously, I can . Haaha . Big deal huh ???
Saturday ...
I was supposed to be working today . But it was cancelled for some reason . So I decided to sit at home and help momma with the housework I had been missing fer a few weeks . Dishes, laundry, vaccum and mop . I clean up my room . So nice . So neat . Not like "kandang babi" (wat momma always say) anymore . I also clean up my closet . I re-fold my clothes . Hang them nicely . I arranged them by colours . Haaha . Now I realized, I really am colourful . Like what some people said about me . Haaha . But still, Orange rocks !!!
I went to watch the fireworks . Hmm . Guess who did I go with ?? My family !!! I mean my relative . Ermm . My mum's side . Mak Busu's family . Ibu Ayu's Family . Cik Mala's family . Kakak's family and my family ! We sat at the Merlion area . Came freaking early sia . 6 o'clock reached there oredi . Kiwaak . Klaakar pulak klua ngan makcik2 ni sume . Bawak tikar . Bawak mee, jempot2, roti telur, roti tuna, roti hotdog . Haaha . at least something . I don't need to worry about how much money I bring, where to eat BUT !!!! cannot smoke sia . uuurgh .. Lembek siol . K ..
The fireworks was awesome . As usual . It was the last fireworks for Firework Festival 2006 . Waited for 3 hours for a 15 minutes fireworks . Thousands of people were there . I didn't bother to catch any shot of the fireworks coz I would prefer concentrate and enjoy the beauty of fireworks than trying my best to catch the best shot of the fireworks .
Took the train and in the train, I saw a guy . He's so cute . Like, he's my size or maybe bigger . His face was so sweet . He was wearing Bermudas and "kemeja" . With skate shoe and he has got White Retro Adidas Watch which he change the strap to be blue . He was listening to his Mini iPod . K . Ermm . That's a little too in details but who cares . He's so cute . I don think many girls will find him good-looking or handsome or wateva . Maybe, I'm the only girl who would think he's drop dead gorgeous !! Haaha . He melted my soft heart laa .. K . he alighted at Marsiling . Whooooo . He must be living at Marsiling !! Or maybe not . K . enuff of him la huh .
Sunday
I was working . Work work work . So tired . So sleepy at work . Seriously, I really hope I was at home sleeping my ass out . But its ok . Money coming in !!! BY-THE-WAY . Nothing went wrong today . Everything was so fine .
I saw another cute guy . He's mixed . His mom was Japanese and his dad was Caucasian . Like Oh My Gosh !!!! He's so cute . Naah . He's cute without the ugly . His hair is like Paul Twohill's but the better version .
I had a an Egypt customer . He was waiting for his order to be ready wen suddenly he said my name "Fatin" in his accent . He den told me that my name was quite common in his country, Egypt . A couple of actress has "Fatin" as their name . I couldn't really catch the full name of the actress, he said it in his accent . And there's a queen in some country name "Fatin" too !! Haaha .
Well, one thing I should highlight . Rafi called me . Yupp yup . Rafi . My ex . We’re attached early last year . K . Ermm . He asked me out this Friday for a movie . It’s so-called a date . Or maybe not . But why, it’s so sudden .
I went home straight after work . No one's at home . So I spent quality time with myself . This is indeed a long entry . 3 days-shit in one entry .
Lotsa love to readers who manage to read to this very last sentence .
Love Love
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